November 28, 2015

It ALL came together......

They DID NOT want the pictures in the court room, the bad-guys would surface up. Call-out!

1) The firm helped the bad-guys. That is why the stalling out till the statue of limitations ran out. It's there loud and clear anyone can see that I'm NOT making that shit up. If the pictures landed in court EVERYONE would know who done it, end of story. They were making sure it didn't happen. Going the distance. Paying this one off and that one off.

2) There are a select few in the Arkansas State police being protected.

3) The shut down at the FBI, when me and my mom went for help. The Firm, called the shots with that sad to say. They shut that down very fast like and long waiting time too for me and my mother.

FBI Agent-- There's nothing criminal about the pictures, just empty beer cans.........
Me--Empty beer cans should have been on the police report
Mom-- Sobriety test should have been taken on everybody even my daughter.......
FBI Agent-- speechless....... what could he say.......

4) There are a lot in Conway County, Arkansas being protected too.
5) Tina Ann Graves, fuck her! She wrote a book no more to say about that. The crooked cops and the boys were their main concern NOT Tina Ann Graves hell with her she is on her own!

The Firm,

You know what makes me sick, sitting on my couch and seeing commercials. Yup, makes me puke every time. Shysters and shysters don't need commercials and lie to the Arkansas people to be honest. Real talk and true story. They don't need to be in business needless to say.

June 2015- I have leverage-yes, it's against the law NOT to report the alcohol and it will be added Ms. Graves. You will win this.

October 2015-I don't have leverage and NOT one judge in the state of Arkansas will FAVOR for me or summit the pictures. In another words your are shit out of luck, Ms. Graves! You are DOOMED! You can't win!

June of 2015, this is what should have been done. Ms. Graves, we can not take your case because we stand behind the Arkansas State Police and we represent them, we can't sue them we back them up. We are in the Court Room on the daily in Conway County, Arkansas. We represent the county. That is called, 'conflict of interest' we can't take your case. You need to find someone else Ms. Graves.

Buuuuuut they took the case and simply destroyed my life for the bad guys. This way they could stall the case out feed me bullshit lies as long as they could and don't let them fool ya, they can stall the insurance company out too. If the pictures landed in court it was over with, whoever covered the wreck up would be exposed the ones they are protecting. I understand NOW when they said, "Not one judge will favor for me state of Arkansas." They will get in trouble too because they helped and they can't get exposed as well. Big-time pay offs! When the case was dropped because I got demanding shit or get off the pot, I need my money, I'm drowning here and so is my mom. The insurance company called afterwards they have them in their hip pockets too with a $25,000 pay out I have 18,000 in medical how was I suppose to make my life whole again being off work 8 months I'm still off work with no car to my name. Bankruptcy is in the future if I can't get help outside of Arkansas. This is corruption and scandal and I got piled drive into the ground in the worst way. Favor for a favor...... Stripped my civil rights away so I can't voice my opinion in the state of Arkansas. I hope KARMA strikes upon them take away stuff like they took away from me. God doesn't like UGLY! These people don't need to be in business. People that know me in real life and they seen what they have done to me with their own eyes. They are spreading the word don't use these people because they will fuck you over in the worst way.

To the parents that helped these boys...

May you all go straight to hell with Hitler rot there for eternity. I don't care if it was Joe Blow's beer. Don't call in favors to leave the alcohol off the police report. That is NOT teaching the boy's anything. That is teaching them that very day, March 24th 2015. It is OK to drink and drive and my parents will get me out of it I have no worries attitude. You guys suck, end of story! If someone died the dead would get blamed anyways true story not the kids.

New England

To the ones that did NOT want me in New England to begin with, you guys can straight up kiss my ass! I will get to New England, I might have to live alone because my plans got smashed like my life in Arkansas. I can still go and come back to Arkansas to visit. When I leave I can throw my middle finger in the air as I go down the road. I belong in New England NOT Arkansas. I LOATHE Arkansas.

National Television.......
Everyone better get on their knees and pray because when I get on national television. I will tell it like it is and minus the cuss words. Truth will roll off my tongue. I grant you that!

I need to become a lawyer, I am good at this.

Maybe I can go to Yale and get my law degree. Fingers crossed or become a psychiatrist, who knows.

Karma, what goes around comes back around!

November 21, 2015

It's All Coming together.....

I have been thinking...

I was told that I would have had to use my settlement all of it to take it to trial, I felt something was not right with that picture (gut feeling.) I researched it did my OWN investigation, no, I would have not need to use my settlement because my pictures were concrete evidence I would win hands down too many told me that to begin with. The firm I hired was trying to discourage me that's all NOT take it to trial. They had NO intentions to take it to trial because they were protecting people. They made it look like it on paper that it could go to trial covering their own tracks. They couldn't take it to trial. They were protecting someone within the Arkansas State Police department because they put in a favor. They were protecting certain ones in Conway County, Arkansas because of favors too. This is all about the 'the boys' they did not want anything on the (boy's) records so I got the worst punishment of all protecting them I done without and it has cost me too. My book played a major part in this, I can't forget about it. It stood on March, 24, 2015 this was about 'the boys' NOT about Tina Graves, that was the day my civil rights were taken away from me. My civil rights were smashed into the ground and I couldn't say anything because my voice did NOT matter.

Now I understand the doctor why she was saying it was all in my head, there's nothing wrong with me and I could go back to work. It's 11-21-15 I still have problems lifting and my numbness on my right side is getting worse by the day. Beside all the lies how was I suppose to get to work? I still don't have a car. I was told I was supposed have gone to a chiropractor and a neurologist they can find pinched nerves from wrecks like I had, I have a pinched nerve. Now I realize they didn't want to send me to chiropractor nor a neurologist.  I went to a quack doctor and a physical therapist instead I didn't need PT. They did NOT want to find anything wrong with me that's why. The firm were protecting people and they were protecting them at all costs. I am very pissed off about this. What if I have nerve damage? I have a picture of keys that were bent and so many have told me that is where my problem lies at. To be exact it's on my IG 30 something weeks ago. Here I was trying to tell the doctor that something was wrong with me and she told me it was all in my head and I can work. What kind of doctor is that? I was dealing with high amounts of PTSD too. No one cared at all. That is sad because it was all about protecting the 'boys' and the crooked cops. They treated this accident like it was a fender bender. My injuries were treated like it was minor. I was hit by a truck that was traveling VERY fast and it was a hard impact. There was nothing minor about it. It was major wreck and I remember my neck popped and it hurt so bad. No one cared and that is sad. Like it didn't exist and all in my head type situation. The firm, The Arkansas State Police and Conway County Arkansas so many were being protected and what was going on with me didn't matter. It was about the bad guys not me I was thrown under the bus for the kill end of story.

There's a special place in hell for these people

I am going to get my story out because I have a jaw dropping story to tell and I will be heard and I will find out who done this I bet your sweet ass on that. I will search until hell freezes over I will find out. I have the goods in my hands I know it. There will be someone out there to help me I have a good gut feeling about it. A hell of a law team too that doesn't care about pay offs in the state of Arkansas. No one I mean no one will have them in their hip pockets. When someone finally talks to me and my mother it will be a jaw dropping story a true story to the fullest. I have a mind blowing story to tell.

My YouTube.......A MUST watch.....

November 16, 2015

This wreck was NOT about me what-so-ever, ok!

This wreck was not about me. This wreck was about saving 'the boys' making sure they didn't have anything on their records. This is all about adding the alcohol, reckless driving, speeding in a school zone to the police report like it should have been done in the first place. I hired a lawyer and they threw me under the bus by protecting 'the boys' and the crooked cops. How ironic is that? When they protect the state police and they are attorney's for the county I had the wreck in. Can I say conflict of interest? Is that possible? When they stated, "no judge in the state of Arkansas will favor for me or summit the pictures on the police report." I seen that as a threat, that tells me they have the judges in their hip pockets and everything is paid for. There's not one damn thing I can do about it. We are untouchable, end of story. My civil rights have been crushed into the ground, I haven't had any rights what-so-ever. Zero NONE! This is a serious matter when it comes to alcohol and there are bad ass civil lawyers out there, trust me I just need to find one. No one can dance around the pictures, the pictures tells a story it tells the truth. Minors in possession should be added. When you put my pictures on a bulletin board you can see where the alcohol came from. I have pictures from the start to the end. It's all there nothing to hide. This is corruption and scandal at its finest protecting the bad guys. Whoever is doing the protecting may karma strike upon them. My pictures paints a different scene,  the police report is false. As I was told and my mom was told the same thing too. The police can put whatever they want too on the police report if they want to add the alcohol they can if they don't want to add the alcohol they don't have too. They don't need police reports if they are going to add what they want to. So that's giving an okay to drink and drive to minors when favors are done to protect them. How sick is that and I was told it's very common in Conway County Arkansas for the cops to do that. If the family or friends don't want it on the police report the cops will dismiss it as a favor. The victim gets the worst punishment of all time. Like it's their fault. Something should be done about this type of redneck shit and as far as the police they don't need to be a cop if they can't do their job right. My numbness that I'm experiencing is getting worse by the day. I still remember the 'yes' doctor of the law firm telling me, I can work, there's nothing wrong with me all of this is in my head. I beg the differ when I have concrete evidence that says different. May I get help, may I seek justice, may all these scumbags go down in a blaze of glory. May there be a new law stated after this is said and done. I am on bended knees right now praying to God that help will come and get me the justice that I deserve. No one I mean no one deserves this kind of punishment. I have been drugged through hell and back 1000 times over in the last 8 months. I need relief I need it now. Remember no one is untouchable any body can be brought down to their knees that's real talk. This is NOT the 1950's that's dead and gone. It's big brother time remember that. Like I was told in this situation consist of phone tapping and emails goes straight to spam so there will not be any contact. This is (southern mentality this is southern corruption) to stop the person that is fighting it in their tracks so help can't come. I have leverage with the pictures and social media to boot and I will get there. Keep my story out there someone will see this and I will get on national television. Wait till I get on national television and tell this strange ass story. I have a story to tell the world a jaw dropping story to be exact.

November 12, 2015

When you can't make your life whole again after a wreck.....

When your rights have been stripped away.... You have no say so what so ever.... Like you don't exist and you were the one that was traumatized and have been beaten into the ground and you feel like you were the one at fault but in sense of reality you are the victim and you never got justice or a peace of got treated like a piece of shit. I feel like a worthless person now over my wreck.

The wreck, I loathe a lot of people now. 'The boys'  the ones that were in the truck that got flipped over. When the parents and family interveen made phone calls for favors to remove the alcohol, the reckless driving, speeding in a school zone because they can't have that on 'the boys' record. I hate those people because they made my life a living hell. When you look at the situation when everybody intervened rescued 'the boys' the Arkansas State Police made it that very day it's okay to drink and drive you can't tell me any different. That absolutely positively truthfully makes me sick to my stomach. The victim (me) got the worst beat down possible and I did NOT cause this wreck. I could have died and the alcohol didn't matter at all. The police can kiss my ass too. Good cops would have made sure every one was okay then started a series of sobriety tests to make sure and put it on the police report like a good cop should. End of story....... I have hate in my heart over this... They didn't teach 'the boys' shit, they taught them to be rebels and rednecks. Gotta love the south. Kayli and Kade for an example my children. They done this, I would tell either one of them. Good luck with your destruction and ignorance. You have now danced so you got to pay that fiddler. I would tech them a hard lesson. If someone died, I would make damn sure they would go to the funeral and see what grief that they have caused to the family and friends I want them to see that. Alcohol is a serious matter and it can't be swept under the rug and make it disappear. To the ones that done all this to me made it disappear, FUCK YOU! Karma remember it don't forget it.

When you hire a law firm to represent you because you were done wrong and they were lying too you because they were protecting the bad guys right from the start. Fuck'em when you thought you hired the best and they threw you under the bus. I have no use for that kind neither does God. They knew what I was getting from the start and stalled it out on purpose to simply to destroy me everyone around me sees it now. I give myself credit for getting my point across with an email or two. I had enough, shit or get off the pot damn. I need my money I am drowning in life here. They stalled it on purpose technically they were scared of a high profile Civil lawyer and I pray to God one comes my way I am on my knees begging now. Never underestimate a woman that is scorn been done wrong. My numbness is getting worse by the day and all I hear in my head from their worthless doctor, "You can work (me inside my head) I don't have a car bitch, there's nothing wrong with you, it's all in your head." all I was trying to say where I'm hurting and my PTSD was spiraling out of control. There's a reason I don't trust doctors because 9 times out of 10 they simply don't care however they love the money but they don't love their patients or have compassion. What I should have done took her hand and went to Honda World across the street. Buy me a car and I will go to work. How am I suppose to function without a car. I hope Karma comes their way and teaches them a lesson.

The east coast, the stalling was to blame there too. They were scared for a lawyer and some selfish bastards here didn't want me out on the east coast to start with, I loathe them too. Well, plan A is simply destroyed and these idiots here done that on purpose they made sure that plan fell through and it was achieved Plan A went down the drain. I hope they are happy now to destroy something beautiful and I will never find it again. I was happy out there and few couldn't stand it. Why people want me miserable I simply don't understand. So they simply killed that idea. It breaks my heart to pieces. There's always plan B for me. I want out of Arkansas because Arkansas has broke me down to nothing. I have no use for Arkansas at all, I hate this state. My mom, my kids I will visit and return home because I belong on the east coast not here. My time is up and I need a new home and new start in life.

My book 'my book of truth'  about corruption and my wreck sealed the deal regardless of what I am going through at the moment. I don't regret it. I will pull my book from outskirts press and revise and republish. I need to add my wreck and few other things I left out. I will add them trust me. Now I have a story to tell and a good movie deal to boot when the time is right. Even though outskirts press scammed me I pray to God I get a traditional publisher and make things right there and get royalties like I should. I haven't got paid in a year and half so I know I was scammed,  embezzlement at its finest. I hope karma gets outskirts press one day. Fingers crossed for that.

Some days....... Like most days...... I wished I would have died of the wreck. I would have been with my granny and my family and not on earth hurting like I am now. Death is a reward and I am not afraid to die because death is relief from my pain and suffering. Knowing me I will live to be 110 years old. That absolutely positively truthfully sucks!

Right now I am on bended knees and I pray to God that I get justice,  Dr Phil, AL Sharpton and I will put Nancy Grace in there too. I get help on a national level. I pray I get a court date and I get justice. I hope I can stand before all the guilty in the court room one day say what's on my mind. Look at each and every one of them with tears in my eyes and tell them what I really think. I need to be heard and they need to feel what I feel believe me when I start talking they will feel my pain. Trust me, I hurt over this.

I went from a new car, a job, money flow to no car, no job, no money flow.

Now I will have to get a used car and it will take several years to get my life back on track if I don't get on national television and tell my story. I am praying to God everyday that I get that chance to tell my story and NOT get shut down I get shut down everywhere. My rights have been taken away from me for NO reason at all. I pray that I get a bad ass civil lawyer too.

November 9, 2015

My Civil Rights were violated

My pay out would have been $25,000 and I would have had $7,000 left to make my life whole again after I paid $18,000 in medical bills. I need a car and everything else. NO car, NO job, NO money for 8 months I am behind very behind. Hell no, I am NOT signing shit. I will have to file bankruptcy if I went that route. I am going for a Civil lawyer because my rights have been violated. In June 2015, yes, Tina you have the leverage now with the pictures. I was told it was illegal to leave the alcohol off the police report and it will be added on the police report. October 2015. Not one judge in the state of Arkansas will favor for you. The alcohol can't be added, nor the reckless driving and speeding in a school zone. What a flip flop within a few months. One lie after another. It was a BIG pay off from the peons to the top dogs I see it now and everyone sees it too. They KNEW what my pay out was going to be in June they stalled it on purpose and everyone around me is blown away by this. If I didn't get straight to the point with my last 2 emails. I would still be waiting for my check that they were stalling on purpose because they already knew what I was going to get. These people jumped ship got the hell out of dodge very quick. I think it's too late now to hide. People that know me are freaking out over this. They can't believe my life was ruined on purpose. I hired a conflict of interest and that is very illegal needless to say they knew all along. Everyone was working hand in hand even the doctor. The plan was set in motion the day of my wreck. It comes back down to my book that I wrote the 'book of truth' about corruption in Conway County Arkansas. I will find out who done this to me and I will call them out on a world wide level. For an example if a senator told the Arkansas State Police to leave off the alcohol. the reckless driving, speeding in a school zone. I will find out the ones that covered this wreck up and made my life miserable too. I don't care who it was. I will make sure that their faces and names are brought out on a world wide national level where people can see who done this and make sure it doesn't never ever happen again to someone else. I want a new law done where it can't happen again in the state of Arkansas or any other state to be exact. I have went through hell and I have been stripped from everything. There's nothing left of me everything has been taken away from me. Civil Rights committee will be brought into this. This is a serious matter that shouldn't be swept under the rug. I will go to lengths for JUSTICE! Now you can't dismiss alcohol and make it disappear that's very illegal. There are people against drunk driving and they will step in too. There is a bad ass civil law team out in California, I have my fingers crossed there. I got shut down in the state of Arkansas. I will see if I get shut down on the west coast. This is a very serious matter and alcohol shouldn't be dismissed. It was everywhere at the wreck scene and the smell was heavy too. I was told it could knock you down the smell was strong. This is serious my life is serious and I will go into the extreme depths of hell to fight this because my civil rights have been violated. I will get world wide attention on this because this shouldn't happen to another person they don't need to go through what I have been through. I have been beaten into the ground like a dead horse. I have been stripped of everything, I have nothing left. My book plays a big part in this can't leave it out either for revenge anyone can see that.

Anonymous Tip 11-3-2015

I was told to sit on this for a week. While doing so, I am about to have a nervous breakdown and I have lost a lot of weight and I cry all the time. This is scary! Someone wanted me put this on my blog by numbers and space them. So I am doing just that. The tip told me that I will have a good contact soon because you need someone that is powerful to bring the scumbags down. There are people out there in the civil rights committee that will help me. No one will favor for you in the state of Arkansas because everything is sowed up by pay offs. Your rights have been so violated and you have been buried alive and ruined on purpose. It's close to home and mainly because of the book you wrote. This was meant to destroy because of the book you wrote. The right civil rights lawyer will come, trust me.

1) 3-24-2015 the day of the wreck the set up started after the first phone call.

2) It is split in 2 ways close to home and I was told to think about it and I will see it. Just will be the first ones to throw the knife in the back.

3) Top dogs in Conway County Arkansas. I was told to think and it will all come together. Just think about it Tina.

4) The ones you hired were burying you alive from day one. Think about it...... It's all there.

5) They were all hand and hand on this and your medical should NOT be trusted as you stated. Just to be on the safe side.

6) They knew how much you were going to get from the start. They stalled this out simply to destroy you. You should have been paid in June no later than July. No investigation was done. Plus they were scared of a high profile civil lawyer too. They were stalling as long as they could. Your emails made them jump ship. Kudos with that you would still be waiting. This was planned out from the start.

7) The cops were told NOT to put the alcohol and the other stuff on the police report, there was a sobriety test done one the driver. He did NOT passed it so it was covered up. The evidence is probably gone buuuuuut who knows lol integration a good integration will tell the tale.

8) The police report was meant to look minor and that was why the delay of you getting the police report waiting on surprises and they saw the coast was clear they sent out the report. They had no worries until you got pictures to prove them wrong. That's why no judge will favor for you. Pay Off!!!

9) Facebook the kids posted pictures then they were deleted because they were told to do so. There is a way to retrieve them with the right civil lawyer they can do it. The kids posted the beer and the kids seen what happened don't let them fool you. The right lawyer can get access to all the Facebook accounts at school. Don't let anyone tell you different. It can be done.

10) It was a favor for a favor for the boys to keep the alcohol off the police report. Look within the parents and family of the boys it's there it's all there. Remember when you and your mother went to the FBI building and got shut down. Just think Tina it's there right in front of your eyes. The FBI shut you down for a reason.

11) The final the nail in your back and to ruin your life is THE BOOK for revenge. Like you stated a very sloppy cover up.

12) Your civil rights have been violated because you have had NO rights what so ever on purpose. The numbering and spacing will help the right lawyer out in the future. I need to hang tough because I will get a team of lawyers. The scumbags will get what is coming to them and what they get is what they deserve. You can't get help in Arkansas but there are teams out there on the east coast and west coast that will help you. Keep my story out there and help will come. This is a major pay off boils back down to your book. There's more people on your side than you think and they rooting for you to get on national television to tell your story because Tina you have a story to tell world wide and the civil rights committee can bring you justice and ease your mother's mind because both of you have gone through hell. Karma is gonna be bad plus God doesn't like UGLY one bit. What you need is Dr Phil,  AL Sharpton and MADD let's see if Arkansas can shut them down. Needless to say I don't think so.

October 31, 2015

I just got rolled and I have to file bankruptcy

7 months, NO car, NO job, NO $$$

Going down the road minding my business and the wreck was NOT my fault and I get the shit end of the stick. I knew it was going to play out that way. When the assholes changed their tune from June to October. That meeting was lies upon lies. I was lied to from day one. I got to file bankruptcy now. Go from a new car to a used car when I get one. That right there is awful pure punishment. I loathe Arkansas so bad.

My Mother

My mother witness the lies and the deceit. She saw everything unfold right before her eyes. She is devastated totally devastated. She seen what I went through and the beat downs that occurred. She seen me get thrown under the bus like the wreck was my fault. She is totally heartbroken for me. She stated that I had a new car and now I have to get a used one. She is in shock and total disbelief.

Conflict of Interest

That just happened to me, this person knew what county I lived in and they shouldn't have handle this. He shouldn't have done that from day one they should have said NO. I've been screwed over since that day. That's why they bailed out. Everyone was in hand and hand on this situation to ruin my life that was the intentional goal. The good ole boy situation at it's finest. That's why the stalling continued until I got my point across they jumped ship. They got out while they could or had a chance. The stalling would still be taking place as I type this they knew what the outcome was gonna be a looooong time ago like in May. I should have got the settlement in June NOT November they knew how much I was going to get and was NOT going to use the evidence NOT investigate. I will NEVER recommend them to anyone. I DO NOT trust this situation because everything was covered up from day one and the assholes help them out too. I was told that it was illegal with the conflict of interest and the alcohol I can pursue a lawsuit a BIG one. They also stated your wreck was covered up from the peons to the top dogs. A high profile lawyer would love to have this case. I told them there's NOT one judge in the state of Arkansas would favor for me.  That meant the judge was paid off that's what was told too me. He told me, when a high profile lawyer gets through with them, they will be thinking differently you will be going to court. Trust what I am saying, Tina.

Sloppy Cover Up

This was covered up from day one. Your pay out should have paid all your debt on your credit report. Half of your mom's. Get your children lined out. Move to the east coast, reestablish you life and you would have had enough money to live on for a year while you are getting your life back together. Instead you will have to file bankruptcy that's sad. The cover up started from the wreck and went straight up to the big-dogs. He told me it was very sloppy. Where they screwed up at was the conflict of interest. NOW you can't trust your medical NOT at all. I bet your medical is covered up to the max. This is a SERIOUS cover up. Everybody can be brought down by the sloppiness.

The RIGHT lawyer will come have faith!

I was told to keep my YouTube going, keep my social media up to date. The right lawyer will come. NOW you have a story to tell on the Dr. Phil show. You will have a mind-blowing story to tell to be exact. The audience their jaws will drop and they will be shocked of what you have went through in this situation. You got an amazing story to tell absolutely an amazing story Tina don't give up. You will get your chance to tell your story just have faith. They might have shut you down in Arkansas to tell your story but they can't do it on a world wide level. While you don't have a job, no car and no money BEST time to file bankruptcy absolutely it is. Later on I can clean my bankruptcy up don't worry get on the survival mode do what you got to do to survive and it will work in your favor later on. My credit will be back in good standing when the time comes. When the RIGHT lawyer comes AND it will happen. This has gone a whole different way, the conflict of interest the lawyer will be going after them first then the state police and the county you live in. The is a damn good case to take down from the peons to the top dogs. This will gain national attention very fast, world wide. The right lawyer will come and they will have an awesome time taking these scumbags down exposing them on a worldwide level. 

This was intentionally done!!!

This was intentionally done to destroy my life and I will seek justice at all costs. I straight up don't give a damn. I should be living on the east coast starting over right now. My case should have been settled in June not November. They knew the EXACT amount I was getting and they strung me along to destroy my life. God, doesn't like UGLY especially in this case. No one is untouchable anybody can be brought down this 2015 not 1950 times has changed.

October 29, 2015

I don't like people BLOWING smoke up my ass... tbh....

Night and Day

June 2015, Tina you have the leverage now. A picture is worth a 1000 words that was told to me. The ball is in my court. I got this. You are gonna win big.

October 2015, I have NO leverage and I am shit out of luck. Nothing I can do. There's NOT one judge that will favor for me in the state of Arkansas.

Then I knew it was a pay off from the bottom to the top of the system. Now that is corruption at it's finest. That was night and day difference within a few months.

Blowing smoke up my ass......

The alcohol should have been added to the police report end of story. This was a BIG time pay off. Oh, I was told the beer cans were empty that was told to me, prove it, if they were empty. It should have been put on the police report if they were empty, right? It's against the law NOT to put the alcohol on there.

The police

The police can put whatever on the police report it's legal to falsify it. If they see alcohol, they can add or NOT add it. Reckless driving they can add or NOT add it. Speeding in a school zone they can add it NOT add it. They can put 55 in a school zone too. Even though it's 25 or 35 speed limit. they are cops and they can do whatever they want too. To me I call it bullshit.
It's all bullshit.....

The break-up

I am so glad that happen because the trust was NOT there. I am relieved!!!! Not on my side at all. The Firm bankrupt me NOT help me. How sad and pathetic was that?  


I am going to have to file it. I have NO other choice but to file it. My life is RUINED and it was RUNIED over a cover-up. 7 months of NO car NO job NO money. I have to eat this because this wreck was NOT in my favor. My mom will have to file too. It's a bad situation to be in. This was NOT in my favor.

National Television

Yes, I will get there. It will take time but I will get there. My social media, I will continue that. I will get my story out there. I am hell bent over this now since my wreck and I was done wrong. I have a gut feeling I will get on national TV. I have a story to tell and it's an unbelievable one too. No one will believe this crap.

The cover-up

One word for that KARMA trust me it will happen. My wreck was covered up from the day it happened to just a few days ago.

The Lawyer

It's going to take a special lawyer to do this. I have a gut feeling it can be done without a doubt in my mind. It is going to take a special lawyer though. I just got to be patient wait for my turn. That lawyer is out there. I just know it.

October 24, 2015

October 13, 2015

Cry for Help

When you are backed into a corner, you will definitely fight your way out. That's what I am doing. They have had 7 months to finish the personal injury lawsuit cut my check so I can start my civil suit for fuck sakes. I see where it's going the 3 year statue limitation way. I think NOT. I have medical bills piling up and very threatening letters to me. I have my regular bills too piling up. I will have to close out my checking account soon. Liens are heading my way.  My insurance company is calling me now. They paid the car off and now they want their money and they want their money now. I told them who to call, good luck to ya mister with that one. What it boils down too, I got hit by a drunk driver and the Arkansas State Police covered it, end of story. Favor for a favor and my book did not help none what so ever. I am the victim here and I am getting punished to the max. Why? The ones that covered up this wreck are being protected. When the statue of limitation runs out the ones that covered up the wreck it will still be there and they will still get in trouble regardless. What they need to do is own up too it and face the consequences' right now like a grown adult. They can not get out of the pictures and the very false police report. Cut a check to make my life whole again and so I can start my civil case it's NOT that hard to do. This will be a high profile case and I will become a household name because people will want to keep up with this cluster fuck for sure. I have been told this first hand. You have the leverage Tina and you can blow a lot of shit out of the water. You can do some damage girl they know it. They are scared of you.


My mother, my ONLY supporter through all of this that is about to go bankrupt because of the wreck which was NOT my fault. I have no car, no job, no money. What has my mom done to deserve this? Not one fucking thing. She is 71 and she doesn't deserve this at all. She's a breast cancer survivor going on 19 years. You know what? It really motherfucking pisses me off to think about it. My mom is suffering from this wreck and my kids too. I am suffering the most because my life is paralyzed I can't do nothing. I don't have the means to do anything. I am moving out of state to give her relief. I have no where to go and I have a real good friend that will help me out. I am going to be along ways from home. My kids are grown and their dad can step up. However if my mom's health fails over this wreck. What I have done on the internet SO FAR ain't nothing compared to what I am about to do they better be scared of me then. I have nowhere to go in Arkansas and where I am going is peaceful. I need that right now in my life. My nerves are shot to fucking hell. I will protect my mom bottom line and I will remove myself to give her relief. I will NOT live with anyone that is negative in the state of Arkansas. I know where this will be going. The answer is no with that place. Something happens to my mom, Arkansas State Police and Conway County, Arkansas better watch out. I will move out of state to make it easier on my mom and give her a break. We hate everyone at this present time anyways because nothing is being done about this wreck. So I'm going to hand it off to the media and press since we can't get shit done in Arkansas.

The Dr. Phil Show
I have been wanting to get on the that show since 2010 when I started my testimony. I knew that was going to be hard to do. He said she said, kinda hard to pull off you know. Now since my wreck has happened. I have a real good shot to get on the show. Dr. Phil and his staff will be in shock when they look at my police report and my pictures. I know in my heart and soul, Dr. Phil can get me the kind of help I need. I have always knew that from the word get go when I started this mission in 2010. Now I have proof of what I was talking about in my book. I have been defeated for many years now and I will have a chance to tell my side of the story for once and I and I have a tale to tell of pure honesty and hardship. I don't have any problems to tell it front of millions of people either. God wants me to do this and I will do it for him.

The Activist

I am against police corruption and police brutality, I want to educate people how bad the corruption can get and it can get bad to a certain standpoint. I have reached out to the media and press over this and I know it will NOT happen over night but I know I will get somewhere with it soon I know I will. The story I have to tell is an all time American Nightmare. I have been in the depths of hell for a long time now. However, I am feisty, non-compliant and strong-willed and strong-minded woman from the south. I have what it takes to get where I need to go. I know I have a bright light or aura around me and that pulls me into different directions where I need to go at the right time and the right place. My journey in life has been a difficult one needless to say. I know these rotten bastards are breaking me down but they will never get the best of me while I fight my way through this via social media. When I place my evidence into the right hands. The media and the press will shred this story. Once I make my way to national television, my truth and my eyes will not lie. I will be full of emotions but the world should see what these assholes have done to me.

Bat-shit CRAZY!

I am NOT bat-shit crazy. Bat-shit crazy people can't maintain in the real world and social media like I do. I am very intelligent woman. I don't take any shit that's all. I fight for what is right! In the south I am known for being a loud mouth bitch because I speak my mind. So be it! I know that it is very ILLEGAL to leave OFF alcohol on the police report and my pictures that's all you seen and it was a war zone too. Police report looks like a fender bender, my pictures I have a war-zone and a half. I am surprised there were NO deaths involved in this a true blessing from God. However leaving the alcohol off the police report is a NO-NO can't do that! People were stepping over alcohol, I was told that was all you could smell was alcohol nothing but alcohol. So I am NOT bat-shit crazy. I know one thing my mom, is so livid at everybody right now. I have to step into the public eye and reach out for help because you can't get any in Arkansas. How low is that, the wreck was NOT your fault. Can't get help in Arkansas, you got to reach out for help on a national level. Scum of the earth pretty much with this case. I agree with her. I am just standing up for myself. Welcome to Arkansas. Ignorance is bliss. Enjoy your stay. Because I have bigger balls than Conway County Arkansas and Arkansas State Police well boo fucking hoo I am labeled bat-shit crazy. I'm tired of this situation for realz. Freedom of speech baby freedom of speech!


My mom's car is her car not mine. Medical appointments was okay. Work was okay for about 2 or 3 weeks. That's all, she needed her car and I couldn't work around her schedule. She told me her car wasn't going back and forth to Little Rock. She paid the car payment and that was not going to happen. That car has got to last until she dies she can't afford another one. I put in my 2 weeks notice because I could not get to work so that is that. I have my 2 weeks notice too filed. For the people that are running their mouths around here. If I don't like my settlement I have rights if I like it or I don't. Arkansas State Police and Conway County, Arkansas will be drug through court twice personal and Civil if I don't like what I hear. I WILL air out the dirty laundry like a boss. I have been beat into the ground and it's only fair to air out the dirty laundry in the public eye. I am going to win BOTH cases hands down. Remember that. You can't put a price tag on my pain and suffering now. People should think before running their mouths. Reread my blogs!!!

Arkansas State Police and Conway County

Let me state some things, I have not had one problem with the Arkansas State Police until 2015. I had a cop to follow me home from Menifee/Conway he was parked under the bridge and he got behind me and followed me home. I was 35 minutes from home then he parked in front of my house and I took a picture and text it to a BAMF Special Agent with the police the department. Then I had my wreck and look what happened. I got hit by a drunk driver and the ASP covered it up. So now the Arkansas State Police is on my shit-list and good luck getting off it.

Conway County Arkansas I have had problems with those fucktards since 2004 no need to say anymore.

October 10, 2015

The Spiritual World

Someone had a long talk with me the other day. He made a good point needless to say. He told me the spiritual world has seen everything that I have been through. They have seen my highs and my lows. They have seen every tear that I have ever shed. They have heard the times that I have cried out and wishing I was dead. They know when I have given up completely just because I have had enough. They have felt every bit of your pain Tina he stated to me. They didn't carry you through your wreck for nothing. You have a job to do. No matter how many times you have wished for death, you will not leave this world until your job is done. I sat and pondered on this and got very emotional. I put my head on his shoulders and started to cry. I told him, it's going on 7 months without a car, a job, and money. I have been stripped away from everything. I started to cry really bad because I'm being punished to the max and the wreck was NOT my fault. I stated I am wore down, I am tired and sick of it all, I have been beaten into the ground like a dead horse. defeated. When I go back in my mind to March 24th 2015. All I was doing was going to work and taking care of business. I was moving to New England in June. My mind was strong and my confidence was high. A true hustler mentality that I had. I have been working since 1990. That's all I knew. I have had up to 3 jobs at one time. I have worked fiercely and strongly all my life. I am a very motivated woman. This wreck has changed me and has brought so much rage within me it scares me. This wreck was no means my fault at all. When you get hit by someone that had alcohol on board and he was drinking because of what he had done. When you run a stop sign doing 60 miles an hour. Thinking he could beat whoever was coming down the road. I will state this. 1) he was drinking 2) he was on drugs 3) he had a mental illness or finally all the above applys. A person in his right mind wouldn't have done that to begin with no ands ifs or buts about it.  Then you have the cops to cover it up like it was a minor accident. Yes, I have every right to be mad. That's where my rage lies at. It's going on 7 months now and I am still living in hell. I see it now, my family sees it too. Why the stalling out is because they are protecting the ones at fault. Some of my family is so pissed off about this. They are going to stall this as long as they can. So these dirty rotten bastards that covered up my wreck doesn't get ousted into the public. Well guess what? I will take my pictures and my extremely false police report and my book and take it on a national level. I will bypass the Arkansas news media because in reality they will stop it from airing. Oh hell no, Tina will not do this. I will take it on the national level. Someone from CNN would love to get a hold of this story. This is a story to tell the whole wide world. Police corruption and police brutality at its finest. The media and press will shred this to pieces and everyone knows it around here. Arkansas media I would get stopped in my tracks no need to go that direction. National media is where it's at. I am so emotionally distraught because I have been done wrong with this wreck. When I get on the national news, this county doesn't have a prayer to stand on. The skeleton's will fall out right and left. When I step in front of a camera to do an interview it's over with but the crying. My PSTD is pretty bad right now. This part should have been done and over so I can start my civil case. They don't want a civil lawyer in here and they are gonna stall it as long as they can. Well, they can't dance around my evidence and they can't get out of it. They need to cough it up right now grow some fucking balls and do what's right. I will be glad to present this to the public. I need relief and I need it now. I will do what I have to do to get relief I promise you that much. I am tired and I am wore down and I need to get this civil lawsuit started. I will find out who covered this wreck up and I will make sure they are pointed out via TV and they lose their job and make sure this shit doesn't happen again to someone else. I have the goods on me and I will get justice hell or high-water. I am done fucking around with these clowns. It time to rock this out on the national level knock it out the ballpark! It's time for me to get on TV and make my life whole again. My family and friends are disgusted that I have to go such lengths to find relief. It pisses them off to see the bad guys being protected. They covered up my wreck they need to own up to it and if they are broadcasted all over the media so be it. They should have done their jobs right in the first place and this wouldn't be taking place. I don't feel sorry at all. Corrupted bastards there's a special place in hell for those who done wrong. End of story.

I am going to let one thing be known. I truly wished I would have died in the wreck. The emotional, physical and mental breakdowns I have to deal with since my wreck unbearable. I would have been better off dead dealing with this shit. I have been defeated by police corruption and police brutality for many many years now.  I would have been freed from my pain and sorrow living on earth. All I know is beat downs. People really don't have a clue how I truly feel. When I get on national television, Conway County Arkansas is totally fucked because the truth is gonna roll off my tongue and I will not hold back either. When you get to that point you straight up don't give a fuck anymore.  I am at that point right now and I will not have any remorse what so ever.

September 10, 2015

September 17, 2010 to September 17, 2015, 5 years of H-E-L-L!

In one week, 5 years going on towards my testimony. My blogs, my timestamps.

In two weeks, going on 6 months of hell with my wreck. No car, no job, no money. I'm the victim, I still remain in the pits of hell. The corrupted SOBs put me there.

I loathe Arkansas I fucking hate this state!

Then I have to see my 2nd ex husband the one that has caused all this bullshit for me. See him going up and down the road makes me sick to my stomach. He is the main cause of this situation and I would give anything to have a delete button in my life, that part of my life would be forever gone. I promise.

I wrote a book and told the truth and getting punished because of my wreck I think not. I'm a warrior goddess motherfuckers remember that.

Then have the Fast and the Furious to be replayed in real life by a young man. I would love to ask him a question or two. Stopped on a hill, decided to run a stop sign doing 60 miles plus an hour. Thinking it's cool to do so. I think not, he could see me coming down the road and he sees the 18 wheeler stopped at the stop sign (opposite side) waiting for me to pass by. The young man thought he could beat me and charge over the intersection without stopping at the stop sign as fast as he could go. It didn't work out to well he hit me flipped landing upside down by the 18 wheeler. From that day my life turned upside down and began my living fucking hell for me and my family. Thanks a lot heathen. The report looks like a fender bender. Imagine that!!!

I think what pissed me off the most my mom saying this caught my attention very clearly. She left the wreck scene to go to the ER with me and thinking the police would do their jobs and do them right. That's why she or WE will not step foot in the state police building because they lied at the wreck scene, why would it make any difference going there and be lied to all again relive the nightmare. She holds truth with that statement.  I refuse to put my pinky toe in that building because I don't want any more knives stuck in my back. Real talk real truth baby. It angers me that my mom doesn't have faith in the state police but it really angers me I have no faith in cops. To me they are lying bastards. Hey, I am calling it like I see it being defeated like I have, you can't blame me at all.

Going on 6 months with no car no job no money. Getting punished by writing a book and getting punished by others protecting the crooked cops and 5 heathens. No reckless driving, no speeding at a school zone, no alcohol in possession by minors that were all under 19 years of age,  on my police report. Just failure to stop at a stop sign, not wearing a seat belt, nothing more nothing less.  But it was my fault and today I'm still trying to figure that one out. I'm the victim I had the right of way and I am getting a total bashing from hell. I don't see fairness in that. The police hung me by trauma. There's not a price tag to be placed on my pain and suffering.

Civil suit, oh yes, there will be one. I really loathe the intimidation that is going on around me and the threats can't forget that. Oh you will have to spend all your money from your settlement to get a civil lawyer. Wrong motherfuckers! A civil lawyer will look at the pictures and look at the police report and my book run with it like a boss. Like a lawyer mentioned to me, we will worry about the money at the end because sweetheart I know you don't have any money to start this but the ending will be just fine the leverage you have seals the deal darling. Your first settlement should go towards making you whole again since you went through a terrible nightmare and to get everything back on track. See I'm not a dumbass after all. I'm quite intelligent needless to say. I loathe intimidation and threats because it will NOT work with me. Any civil lawyer in the US, would take this in a heartbeat because he/she will see potential for a class action lawsuit baby. 35% per person a smart lawyer will take that on with the quickness. A few have seen my pictures and police report see great potential there without a doubt. No money down just let us have it we will worry later about money kind of mind set. I love smart lawyers like that. They know their law. I'm far from stupid hate when my intelligence gets insulted. One said, just one interview on TV it will be like wild fire spreading across social media because tons keep up with me anyways. That's extraordinary he mentioned. Nice to see that kind of clout on the Internet.

Don't get me wrong little darlings about the police. They are good ones and they are bad ones out there too. What people should do is put my shoes on their feet. They were going to work minding their own business an accident happens find out later, you got hit by a drunk driver and the state police covered it up. How would you feel about that if it happened to you? How would you feel if you would have died the alcohol would have never shown up. It's a devastating thing to deal with and live with, trust me I know all about it. I have great amounts of PTSD from this. I live with this every fucking day of my life continuous nightmares over and over again. Why the civil suit get rid of the bad cops because the good cops well the bad cops are making them look like a POS too that's a true story. I loathe police corruption and police brutality I can't stand it. Above the law is bullshit nothing but bullshit. Abusing their authority makes me vomit.

My anger issues are off the charts now, it will take a long time for me to get right. Getting a civil lawyer, he will get me a psychiatrist because he will know my PTSD will be kicking into high gear because I'm reliving everything. I have nightmares and recurring dreams of all the traumatic events that has happened in this county. Sometimes I wake up at night I'm full of rage because of the trauma I have been through that rage I have is scary. I'm hard person to live with to deal with because I have been defeated for so long now. Yes, I have the 'fuck the police'  attitude. Why not? Look what I have been through. I have been through hell and back 100 times over. That's why I'm a feisty non compliant woman because I stand my ground if it nearly kills me to do so.  That's all I know, how to take up for myself when no one else would.

I have lived an American nightmare to the fullest still living it. That's why I want to move to the east coast because peace and tranquility and solitude resides there and my heart speaks up and is at rest there. I will live in New England I bet your sweet ass on that bitches. After all I have been through since 2004 I deserve that much. I should already be living in New England right now, working going on with my life. I was moving there 2nd week in June. To think about it as of now makes me sick. I should be living my life not a damn nightmare.  Oh, I deserve a spot on the Dr Phil show too and trust me I will get there with my civil lawyer right by my side I betcha.

Kayli and Kade, they have a mother that is emotionally, physically and mentally ran down. I can't provide for them like I want too. I feel like a POS to be honest. I have very good kids. Has anyone thought about their needs and what it's doing to their mother. They have to witness this too. Certain people should think about this because it's affecting them on great levels. I loathe this situation I swear to God I do. Makes me so mad I can't see straight. Inhumane at its finest. My kids are 18 and 20 they are not little kids. They see this on a mature level. They see the pain the hurt that dwells in me on the daily. That hurts my heart and soul.

Let's talk about the my car, I had a NEW car until it got totaled by a heathen. My first new car in 10 years because I was never able to afford one. I got to drive it for 6 months to the day. Let me mention my last doctor's visit. I wish I could go back to that day. At first I couldn't work, then I got on light duty. Which at the hospital there's no such thing and I have an email that said that by my ex boss, NO LIGHT DUTY work here. She always mentioned to me I need to work. I got tired of saying that I don't have a car. I quit saying it. My mom's car I couldn't make a schedule at work because I never knew when I could go in if she needed the car I couldn't go to work. At the time of the property damage settlement, I couldn't work. I couldn't lift. I could not afford a car payment when I could not work how was I going to pay for it. It was no win situation for me not at all. Jabs by the doctor, jabs by the firm, jabs, jabs, jabs, I don't have a car to perform daily activities. This wreck was not about me. I was left in the pits of hell from the get go. It was about protecting crooked cops and 5 heathen boys. Fuck Tina she is on her own. If I could cuss that doctor out I would. This wreck was not about me and my needs. Since working was shoved down my throat, I wished these motherfuckers would supply me a car to get there. I did try to work first week in June, my back could not hold out. I was having problems. I wish people would lay off about working because I have NO car to get there.

The Civil Lawyer meeting
He put all the pictures together one by one. He laid out the police report. He placed my book at the end. I already knew what he was about to say.
1) Alcohol was at the scene, it's all over the pictures. Sobriety test to EVERYONE even YOU! I was laid out in the middle of the road.

2) The pictures shows a school. High speed and reckless driving at a school zone. Truck turned upside down that meant he was traveling at a high speed.

3) You passed out several times at the wreck. You needed to stay over in the ER/hospital for observation not be in and out like you went through. Sometimes an MRI and Cat Scans can't catch stuff at the very moment.

4) Pictures should have been taken. That right there shows they were protecting the boys. Alcohol was everywhere.

He said, it was a set up and a cover up. The pictures the police report and your book tells a story. He looked at me and said do not let them intimidate you or threaten you. You don't have to use your settlement for civil that settlement is for YOU to make YOU whole again to make things right in your life like they should be your experiencing a nightmare a very bad one. All you have to do is give me one dollar, I will take your case on. We will take a picture with it in the beginning and a picture in the end. Any civil lawyer will take this on without a doubt. He told me medical will be redone to rest his mind. However one nerve damage seen, I know the consequences, you don't, I do. You shouldn't have to worry about it. A psychiatrist is a MUST for PTSD that you are dealing with. He told me do not let them punk you down. This civil can turn into a class action lawsuit it's there. I told him, God, couldn't get out of this if he tried. He stated you are absolutely right.

Here's the million dollar question, what has my mom, Kayli and Kade done to deserve to live with a monster, which I am talking about myself. My PTSD is off the charts. What have they done to deserve this? This is a simple wreck with tons of pictures to tell the story different from the police report, it should have been done a long time ago. This has created a monster in me. I have gotten blamed from the get go on this and it was clearly NOT my fault at all. This absolutely positively truthfully makes me sick. I have been picked up and slammed on the ground since my wreck, March 24th 2015. When will this fucking nightmare will end so I can start my civil case? That's the million dollar question!!!!!!!!!!

Let's talk about my PTSD and my depression. My PTSD ranges in so many directions. However RAGE is the main one if people actually knew what I thought I bet them a million dollars it would scare the shit out of them,  I promise that much. The RAGE inside me is indescribable. Sometimes I scare myself that's being as honest one can get. When I get to that level, I isolate myself from the world until it passes. Then I have depression, I lay in bed for days in and days out for days. Don't want to move, don't want no one to talk to me. Leave me alone attitude. I do a lot of crying so much crying it's unreal. I have no car, no job, no money. That just tears right through me pisses me off. I feel useless worthless a POS. I had a hustler mentality now I don't. I think back what the cops have done to me since 2004. What my 2nd ex husband has done he brought on all of this on me because I would not take him back. The good ole boy system at its finest. Thugs and crooked cops destroy my life and my happiness. I finally found a way out I was supposed to move to New England in June the 2nd week to be honest. I wanted out of Arkansas so bad because of the stress I was living under looking over my shoulder and so on. When I was in New England, I was breathing, living and enjoying myself something that I haven't done in ages it felt so fucking good too and I missed that, I want it back.  I had my 5th visit just a few weeks ago and I wish I was there right now.  Most of the time I wish I would have died in that wreck. I would have been better off. Everyone around me would have been better off. I see no fairness in this wreck. This wreck was not about me, this wreck was about protecting the crooked cops and the heathen boys not about me and I was the victim here LOST everything and I am the one that is getting shit on. There's not a day that doesn't go by I wish for death upon me, hoping I don't wake up just let it end for me. I feel like I am being punished and I have lived through enough punishment to be honest. I want to live in New England and I am stuck here because they don't want to finish this 1st case up that's why the stalling. This 1st round should have been over with by now, so I can start my civil case. Why the delay because of the protection of the monsters that caused this for me. I loathe Arkansas, I hope I move soon. I will never ever move back here not in this lifetime I am done with Arkansas so done. Now I'm hoping and praying I can draw out my retirement pension from my last job so I can have money, I need money. This is ridiculous that I have to go to unusual extremes to survive in Arkansas. That's all I have been doing here is surviving and existing not one ounce of living here in Arkansas.  Here I am the victim and I am getting punished to the max because I survived a wreck and wrote a book I told nothing but the truth so help me God. I don't understand why I didn't die March 24th I'm still living in hell. I would have been so much better off dying than surviving. Sometimes I just drop to my knees and cry out, why this test? Why me?  How strong do I have to be before I break into? The cards that I drew for this lifetime is such a fucking bitch. Lessons upon lessons not blessings upon blessings. If I'm the 'chosen one' why am I drowning in a sea of pain and torture.  

Stop right there. You can tell by my popular posts how much blog traffic I get. I get thousands of hits on the daily.  
To the ones that know me and running their mouths please swing by my place we can discuss it. 
My own mom and she was born in 1944. She stated, this has got to be the worst thing she has experienced in her life and she also stated the unfairness when it comes to me the mental torture to ones soul is unbearable. It's a total nightmare and a price tag can't be put on this situation at all hell no.  
No, I don't feel sorry for saying what I have said. I have been pushed to this point. They have created a monster. I have not been kept informed at all. When someone calls they are wanting this bill or that bill. No, I don't feel sorry not in this lifetime. At the moment I feel like a prisoner in Arkansas I can't go anywhere. That's where my breakdowns come in place. I loathe a lot of people in this state. I have every right too. The ones that are around me they do see the unfairness. I have to draw out my retirement to survive. That right there is sad and the scum I have no remorse for. All I know when I do get on TV and I will get there I promise. When the shit goes down everybody better be ready. That's a fact baby. 

September 17th 2015

Today makes 5 years of dedication to this blog with my writing, since my wreck, I am mentally, physically and emotionally broken down. I am numb and I am at the bottom can't sucker punch me anymore I couldn't feel it. It severely pisses me off. Now I am in hopes of drawing my retirement out and they don't penalize me too bad for it. My kids need clothes and other things. I am running out of everything, I have hardly anything left. My anger issues and depression grows every fucking day. I hope I can draw out my money. I think it's pathetic I have to do this but it is what it is. I trust no one but my mom, Kayli, Kade which I can't wait to move to New England. I will get there soon, I just know it. I sent out a serenity prayer and hopefully next week will be a good week. I am praying and doing my rituals for a much needed break.

September 24th 2015

Today marks 6 months since my wreck, 6 months that my life has been on hold. No car, No Job, No money. All I was doing that day of March 24, 2015 was going to work and doing my daily routine nothing more nothing less. September 24, 2015, I should be living in New England and going on my daily routine of working and paying bills just living my life because I couldn't live my life in Arkansas the way I wanted too. However that did not happen for me needless to say. A nightmare from hell appeared out of nowhere. My life was in inches being taken away from me and my family. All I am left with is a false police report. Cops and heathen boys were protected that day and as of now too. I have 30 something pictures that tell a different tale. God, himself couldn't get out of this if he tried. I am the one that is being punished to the max. I did not do one motherfucking thing wrong that day. What? I wrote a book. I wrote a book about the truth. That's what I did. So, punishing me and starving me out and not being able to take care of my kids is my torture everybody around me is being punished too. Hmmmm, if I lied in my book that day I would have died, hands down NO lie karma would have gotten my ass. The God's, the universe and my spirit guides knew I was working my way out of Arkansas and I guess they thought I had a job to do before I left. I landed in a pile of police corruption and police brutality. That's why they carried me through my wreck. Well, I hope I am as strong as they think I am because I am beaten down to the ground at the moment no more sucker punches for me. I am numb I couldn't feel them if I wanted too. I hope they chose the right one to do this job because I am not for sure. I am one tired motherfucker. I am physically, mentally and emotional drained there's nothing left of me. I need a recharge. I need my personal injury check to make me whole again and get the fuck out of Arkansas. However, threats and intimidation is getting on my last fucking nerve because I am NOT backing up this corruption. I am going to take this to a civil lawyer and pursue a civil lawsuit. I straight up don't give a fuck if this county doesn't want a civil lawyer in here or not. They shouldn't have covered the wreck up in the first place. My pictures (alcohol everywhere) my very false police report and my book (my book of truth), cinched the deal. When I get on national TV when the shit goes down everybody better be ready. I don't give a damn, no one didn't give a damn when I was laying out in the road passed out from my wreck. They were too busy covering it up. Sorry motherfucking assholes because I wrote a book about the truth. I will find out who covered this up and I will make sure they are fired and they are on TV for the world to see what they have done to me. Going on 7 months of my life being on hold part 1 should have been already over with by now. This wreck has mentally fucked me up to the core. I am a recluse. When the civil lawsuit starts up. I will feel sorry for the psychiatrist because I will have to go back to when it all began, he or she will need prayers because my rage will be off the charts. My rage is very scary right now. I can't wait to move to New England to heal, healing is what I need. Yes, I will travel back and forth for my court dates. I trust NOT a motherfucking soul in the state of Arkansas. I never ever will again. My ONLY support system  is my mom, Kayli and Kade, that is it. I will be glad to move to New England. I need peace, tranquility and solitude. My future shrink will agree with me on that one I promise. I can't wait to grace my presence on national TV and tell this story like a boss. I ain't scare either, go ahead make my day motherfuckers, threaten and intimidate me IDGAF anymore. I dare you. I will NOT back down from this. Justice will prevail for me, I bet your sweet ass on that. The truth will come out! Being 6 months without a car, job and money has turn me into a raging fucking bitch. I am out for justice and I will get it too. I am on a mission.

My Book........

People are asking about my book. I am NOT worried about Outskirts Press, they will get their day one day. Karma will be knocking soon. I placed that out of my hands a long time ago. I just keep my blog out there to warn people that's all. Yes, they have fucked me over however I am NOT worried. I haven't got a royalty check in a year and a half so that is that.

My book will be pulled and I can add my wreck to it and I did leave out a few things I will add those. I will revise it. Second addition. I have a feeling once I am in the public eye, not behind a computer screen, nor tablet and MOST of all a phone. My book will be republished and a movie will be made from it. I have a story to tell. Universal Studios will have a field day with this I am sure.

My wreck nearly killed me, my wreck has blessed me. The God's the universe, and my spirit guides took over. All the heartache I have been through for many many years and wrote a book, got screwed over with that too. The spiritual world is helping me and I do thank them for that. They know what I have been through and it's been a living hell. I need blessings upon blessings for me, my mom and Kayli and Kade. The spiritual world is guiding me in the right direction and on the right path. I love them dearly for that too.

August 2, 2015

Victim's get the WORST punishment of all. True Story.

To me victims don't get treated fairly at all, the horror they have encountered and the horror they have to go through.

I have been defeated since 2004, one beat down after another. Continous cycle of tread beaten hell on one's soul. This county gets away with murder literally it does. Take my word for it. I'm telling the truth.

I am a woman and I take up for myself I stand up for myself. So therefore I've put myself in a position of being unruly and out of control deviant spawn from hell. In the south women shouldn't say a word. I'm like fuck that rule. I beat to a different drum and I stand up for myself. No one I mean no one will ever run over me. Not in this lifetime.

However this wreck, has broke me down. I so can't wait to get a civil lawyer and take my ass on the Dr Phil show. That's where it's at. I feel it deep down in my soul. My civil lawyer sitting right by me and let the discussion begin and the meltdown take place.

For someone driving to work, minding my own business my life went to hell over a wreck. I just want to know why cops can't do their jobs right in the first place. Parents, other influential cops, pay offs to make alcohol disappear. Here we are in the sign of times of cell phones. Pictures and videos are being taken constantly. What kind of dumbass move was that? Treat the wreck as a fender bender and it was a fucking war zone that happened and I was inches from death. Guess what? This accident was uncalled and shouldn't have happened in the first place. That's the God's honest truth.

See I've been dealing with PTSD for a long time now. I've have always kept it under control. However this wreck put it in a different realm. Knowing you were set up because the pictures and the police report doesn't add up because you see nothing but lies upon lies. I am one inch from snapping because all the bullshit that I have dealt with since 2004. It's turned me into a different person. I've had enough my patience is tapped out.

Well this will NOT be swept under the rug after I find the meanest God damn civil lawyer in the US,  I betcha. I want whoever covered this up parents, cops who the fuck ever. Now it's approaching August and this happened in March. I want to know who done this to me. I want their names and faces exposed into the media. I want people to know what I have been through the pain and suffering I have endured over these past 4 months. The agony the mental anguish the constant hell I live with every day. I want their asses fired from their jobs.  They didn't give a fuck about me when I had my wreck. I sure in the hell don't give a fuck about them when their lying asses get exposed.

No job, no money, and most of all no car going on for 4 months now. My car was 6 months old to the day when I had my wreck first new car in 10 years. Plus I can't work my mental anguish is on a very high level at the moment. I stay off to myself it's for the best trust me. I have to limit myself from other people. This round should  have been over by now but it's not because people can't do their jobs right tell the truth in the first place. The pain and suffering I'm going through there's no words for it. I need to get this civil suit going asap. I've put up with all I'm putting up with. I have kids to support too. Has anyone thought about that????

I'm not going to feel one bit sorry for these people that have made my life a living hell. Whatever they get they deserve it. Karma is such a bitch you know. My family and friends get threatened over this, well, there will be another lawsuit from hell. At this point in time on August 2nd 2015. I straight up don't give a fuck. I'm done stick a fork in me. Now I want justice and guess what? I am going to get justice for all the wrong doings that I have encountered I promise you that much. This bitch ain't backing down. Boom!

FYI-I don't take intimidation too well. To be honest it pisses me smooth the fuck off. I will chew you up and spit you out in heartbeat. I am the the wrong one to intimidate. My kids, my family and my friends don't never threaten them because you think this lawsuit is bad wait for the next one that's gonna be the bad one. I was not the one that covered the wreck up. I am NOT at fault here. I am the victim here. These bozos finally got caught. This has got to be the stupidest thing I've seen in my life. However this is going to teach a lesson which God has a plan for me and I know what to do. I bet cops will think twice next time. If anything happens to me, the FBI is in this county the second they find out. The FBI will be their worst nightmare not me. I didn't bring this on, covering it up with malice brought this on just sayin' this is not my fault stupidity is at fault here not doing their jobs right in the first place.

Someone brought something to my attention, they covered up my wreck what if they covered up my medical too or used someone else's or whatever. My anger issues are off the charts at the moment but this really pissed me the smooth the fuck off because I never thought about that. If they can do devilish things at the wreck scene yup they could do that. Whoever is involved in covering this up may they ALL go down in a blaze. May their names and faces be smeared all over the state of Arkansas on TV, in the papers may they suffer like I have. I WILL NOT feel one bit sorry for the low lives. Nope not me, they didn't give a flying fuck about me and all my give a fucks have flown away I have none to give. My civil lawyer will take care of the medical I betcha. I still get numb and I do have headaches. I did passed out at the wreck. I was in the ER like it was McDonald's. Dear God Dear Universe and Dear Spirit Guides and Karma please take whoever did this down pretty much straight down to hell. This is what you call a full blown scandal at its finest corruption all the way to the bone. When this comes out it will NOT be pretty it better favor for me in the highest degree.

UPDATE 8-19-15

I remember in 2004 I had to go to Denver for 2 weeks because I had a nervous breakdown thank God for my brother. I put that in my book as well. Then get emotionally physically mentally broken down in 2015. When is this nightmare gonna end damn it?

Going on 5 months still no car, no job, no money, no settlement to get my life whole again,  I came out to the east coast before I had another nervous breakdown but I still see no relief here either my mind races because I was done wrong. No one I mean no one wants to communicate with me. I need some kind of money to make my life whole again. I'm suffering and my mom and my kids are suffering too. As I gathered some information here I have learned a lot. I guess at the wreck scene was corruption because they left out the alcohol and a lot of other things, I suppose my medical has corruption on it as well (who knows) if they covered up one place they will do it again. Low and behold the firm I picked out looks like corruption there too. My mind is completely blown and confused over that and I don't trust them at all. Talking about the slaps in the face I'm getting. The pain and suffering is so unbearable sometimes I just wished I would have died in the wreck. I would have been so much better off rather living in this nightmare. I am stuck in corruption and scandal no one to help me. I know what I need to do. I got to take this to the media and go to the FBI building to seek help. My depression is getting worse. I'm trying to hold up but it's so hard to do. I just wish I can get on Dr Phil right now so I can get help for my depression and PTSD.  I just wish motherfuckers would have done their jobs right in the first place. I wouldn't have to deal with high amounts of pain and suffering like I'm dealing with right now. Some days I feel like giving up. The pictures there's no way in hell they can get around this none what so ever. Can't.....  The police report is a sham too. A cover up that went wrong.

I'm going to think like this, my settlement will be shit. No one will get fired over the cover up. I've been punished like a motherfucker by no means this was not my fault. What makes me think any differently now because I have lived straight through a nightmare. I have literally been drug through hell. I will prusue a civil lawyer because people like that covering up wrecks for a favor for a favor or revenge should not be allowed to work in the criminal justice system. Victim's get the worse punishment ever. It's all about the crooked people not the victims that's a damn shame too. I will not have any remorse on anyone when the civil takes place. No one had any kind of remorse for me. Fuck'em and feed them fish heads. I will think the worse until I get a better lawyer. A lawyer that will keep me updated not leave me in the dark all the time wonder what is going on and will it favor for me. I'm done stick a fork in me. I see this is being swept under the rug like it didn't happen all in my head bullshit. The wrath in me will appear and I will come out with furious vengeance of the ones that did me wrong. I have no intentions of backing down from this scandal and corruption someone is going to pay for the wrong doing of my pain and suffering that is a promise that I can keep. These people danced now it's time to pay the fiddler.

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The cluster fuck continues

Ok, I went to New England for 2 and a half weeks to stay with a friend and took care of business. He knows all about my situation and I showed him the mess I was in. He knew I was in a cluster fuck. Then I came back to Arkansas which I dreaded all away to my bones. So, I made my mind up to go to an agency for help.  As I got my folders out looking for papers and such horror I seen some were missing and my folder seemed lighter. Yes, these idiots have access in this house where I live at. It's complicated to explain but it can happen without a doubt. I took a deep breath. I wanted to scream to the top of my lungs to be honest. I told myself the firm has copies of everything, what was in my folder the firm had a copy that's what I kept telling myself. Then I got some bad news, which they weren't gonna tell me at first but they did. So much for my peace and tranquility solitude in New England that shit went right out the door. Oh, how I wanted to be back there so bad it hurt. I took another deep breath. Well, if the firm doesn't have copies of what I have already gave them numerous times. Then I know what's up. Why is my life so complicated with this wreck? Why is this cover up being tightly fitted like a blanket. I got the leverage no need for this the pictures and the police report doesn't match. This is nothing but full blown corruption and scandal. I hope the firm is on my side if they are on their side it's gonna be bad for them because I will not have any remorse what so ever. I'm praying to God they are for me. So, I am going to keep thinking everyone is corrupted at this point until I have been proven wrong. Even this agency I'm going to tomorrow. Mom and I. I'm going in there like they are corrupted, why would I think any different. What I have been through the nightmare I'm living my mom is living it and my kids too. I'm a hard person to live with here in Arkansas. I'm not a bundle of joy at all. My depression and PTSD is taking me down every day I live while I'm in Arkansas while I go thru this cluster fuck. See in my opinion I need my personal injury check to make my life whole again. My check should be so good and outstanding that I can tie up loose ends in Arkansas and start my life out in New England with no financial problems at tow. I found a house out there and I want to buy it. It was made back in 1960 a great fixer upper. I love the aura of the house it draws me in every time I go look online at it. I should have enough money to do what I need to do. I need peace tranquility solitude a safe haven house to live in while I pursue my civil case. I will travel back and forth for the civil case. I don't want no part of Arkansas what so ever. I'm done here trust me. However in my civil suit I want my medical redone because I don't trust anyone here now. They covered my wreck up why wouldn't they cover up my medical too. I found a civil lawyer in New England I hope and pray she gets it. She's a true bulldog and I need that right now in my life. I need to get on Dr Phil too. Yup, I'm going to bust this shit wide open. I will not feel sorry for anyone that has done me wrong. The civil lawyer should be able to help me out. Get me the help I need. I need some kind of relief this pain and suffering is about to kill me. Just remember my Blog is a timestamp of my thoughts and feelings if something happens to me this will be a great place to start for the true criminal justice system out there. By no means I am dumb, I am not paranoid, I am just watching my own back because no one else has it. I am a lot smarter what these motherfuckers give me credit for. I have been beaten to the ground and so has my mom. If this visit doesn't go well for me and my mom, we are going on to the National level to get help. We need relief and we need relief now not 6 years from now. The pictures and police report speaks for itself it's a done deal. When people look at the pictures and the report they are totally blown away from it their facial expressions are priceless. It's there for the eyes to see. I want answers and I will get them I will go to the highest extreme if I have too. Not backing down from this situation at all. I want the truth I want it now.

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Dear God Dear Universe and Dear Spirit Guides please get me back to New England where I had peace tranquility and solitude. I felt alive and well out there. Thank you very much!

I am going to be adding to this blog. After yesterday I see that my wreck and my pictures are causing problems. Everyone is dancing around my wreck trying to keep it covered up. Now I'm in a position of being killed. I see that quite clearly. Whoever covered up my wreck is trying to keep it that way at all cost. Now I'm in prayers to get this out in the right hands. I need this to be on a national level. I am definitely a thorn in the sides of the ones that are trying to keep it cover up. I have copies of everything in so many different places if something happens to me. Now I hope I get through this. Treading on dangerous grounds is scary but I hope to live to tell the tale. If I do get killed the right ones got copies they know the lawyer to get. He handles death cases such as this. I'm in the kill zone now. I am being stopped in my tracks. Every place I go I am being stopped. I've been told by the higher ups this was not a criminal act I beg the differ. My Hooterville story trilogy tells the tale. I am in a big mess and they are trying to keep it covered up at all cost. I need a good lawyer a bulldog. This is a serious matter no one is taking it serious.

The phone call I got today, I will definitely get screwed over on the settlement. Man, alive this is bad. My wreck was covered up big time and it will stay covered up until I get a civil lawyer I see that quite clearly now. I got to find a bad ass motherfucker from hell. They are dancing around the cover up like it didn't happen. This is a bad mess to be in and I am the victim and I am getting severly punished at all cost. I will get screwed over on this round by God the next I will not get screwed over. Oh, it's OK for me to go to work. How the fuck am I suppose to get there?  Walk? I was NOT the one that was driving like a bat out of hell. I was not in possession of alcohol. The wreck was covered up by crooked cops. By a crooked system and still being covered up. I loathe these people with a passion. May karma strike down upon them. Here I am the victim that did not asked for this and they are still trying to cover this up. May they all go down in a blaze of hell fire. I hate Arkansas with a passion.

You know what? I'm going to take this shit to court. I'm going to air out all the dirty laundry. I am going to expose the corruption like a boss. I will have no shame in my game. These people will be taken to court twice. This case was not about me at all. It's about the state police and 5 heathen boys that was under age with alcohol in possession and being protected by the corrupted law system and as far as me I was left for death, no car, no job, no money trying to starve me out and make me back down from the pictures I think not hell to the no I'm going the distance with this bitch. That's ok every dog has its day. Karma is going to be a bitch. Hmmmmmmmmm criminal and civil court for these rotten ass bastards I swear to God the criminal justice system is for the criminals and leave the victims to burn at the stake. The victims had nothing to with it in the first place. Innocent bystander. It's a very sad world to live in. I will pursue it on the highest civil level possible I promise that much. Dirty rotten cops and the firm.


My life is paralyzed because I have NO car NO Job and NO money. I was told yesterday I can work, because the asshat doctor said so. I hate when that is brought up. How the fuck am I supposed to get there. Last as I recall the doctor said there's nothing wrong with me. I can work. Oh, it's all in my head too. As I look as those fucking pictures with alcohol everywhere. I guess that wasn't my wreck fucking fucktards. I swear. I can't believe they are dancing around the pictures trying to sweep it under the rug once again. Crooked cops and heathens got away with it for now. There's no telling what I will do but I will tweet my Blog like a boss. This case was not for me what so ever. It's time for karma to play her part.

July 19, 2015

The Horror in Hooterville (triolgy) short-story Part 3

As the time goes by for the woman that lives in Hooterville, Arkansas was getting worse for her. It was approaching 4 months, NO car. She had to put in her 2 weeks notice in at work because she had NO means to get there. The situation where she was living changed. She had NO income coming in either. As she was reflecting what had happened to her over the past 4 months. All she was doing that day was going to work plus she was leaving for Connecticut the following week exactly a week to be honest. Then her life changed before her eyes. This was NOT her fault at all but she was getting punished for it to the fullest. It was NOT her fault that the cops covered up the wreck she had NO control over that what so ever. She couldn't help that they listen to low life scumbags and most likely got a good pay off. This was NOT her fault by any means. The corruption just drowned her everyday where it made her hard to breathe.

Someone was talking to her and they stated, whoever is involved in this cover up their names will be brought to light and this will be brought into the media without any obligations from her. It will not be her to bring this to the media. The ones that are supposed to be doing their jobs right will bring it to the media. Whoever is involved in this cover up will be fired on the spot. Faces and names will be addressed properly to the media. This is a bad cover up and this will be addressed. The pictures and the police report don't match. It doesn't take a rocket scientist to figure it out. Wrong report that is not good enough 4 months into the wreck we are not going to listen to that nonsense. He calls that bullshit. Someone will be owning up to this and people will get fired over it and what the criminal case can't do the civil case will finish it. This is a very bad situation the corruption is malice a bad situation all away around needless to say. Whoever done this will have to pay the price. Then she knew this was a lot worse than she thought. They told her not to worry justice is on it's way. Just to relax faces and names will be brought to light soon enough.

She had been feeling a bit on edge lately however she had a premonition/dream a foggy type dream behind the veils type stuff. She seen exactly what was going to happen. Sometimes she thinks this is a curse or gift to have that psyche ability with a built in intuition. Nothing can't get past her. She analyzed it and she knew how bad this situation was. Then she did a ritual and she called on God, the universe and her spirit guides to help her through this because she couldn't do this alone. She knew she was on dangerous grounds. She needed protection. She knew that her civil case will be exactly what she needed for justice. She will not feel one bit sorry for anyone that gets fired or whoever's name gets smeared. All these years of being defeated, oh she's crazy the list just goes on. This situation bit everyone that was involved on the ass and that made her very happy with a BIG smile on her face. Karma-what goes around comes back around.

Since she has been beat to the ground for taking matters into her own hands pursuing the civil case. Put her shoes on for once. What if you were driving to work or wherever, someone was going about 60 miles an hour passing a stop sign at an intersection they did NOT stop thinking they can beat you before the punch, which you had the right of way. They hit you. Then you found out there was alcohol all over the place later on. The police gave a sobriety test to the driver but none was taken on the police report they checked no test was done. That is a for sure sign that he failed the test, you can't get clearer than that. This was a cover up!!! You got tons of pictures sent to you and the police report doesn't match the pictures. It looked like a war zone. Lies upon lies. You nearly got killed. If she didn't carry the weight she had, she weighed 175 at that time and was in good shape. She would have had broken bones everywhere. Just think about it. You got hit by a drunk driver and the police covered it up over some favors. How would you feel? How would you feel when you discovered the REAL truth. Think before you criticize!!!!! She could have died that day, that cover up to make the alcohol go away would have never been brought to light. She doesn't feel one bit sorry for anyone that loses their job over this. Maybe they will think twice about covering a drunken mess up again. It pays to be truthful and honest. Karma and God doesn't like ugly. Here she's been without a car, hardly no money to her name and she had to quit her job because she had no way to get to work. May the civil lawyer rip through this county like the Tasmanian devil.