I was asked
this question twice needless to say; I avoided it the first time but the second
time from another person. I ponder my thoughts and told him directly what I
thought about that question. I was asked, ‘Are you afraid of someone coming in your
house because it can be easily done, what if they messed with your laptop
because I work a lot and I am gone sometimes?’ I was asked this before by woman
now a man. This is how I responded to the question; I did not avoid it this
time.
First and
foremost, I have my laptop locked on my side of it I do. I looked at this
person right into the eyes without hesitation. I told him, I know where you are
going, it’s about my manuscript. I know there are nosy ass motherfuckers all
away around me. Yeah, it’s been in the back of my mind. I went through all
kinds emotions while I was writing my first book, I had to withdraw myself. I
mean it tore me down to the ground and I had to build myself back up. If
someone fucked with my manuscript caused me problems with my publishing’s, you
really want to know what I would do. I got closer to his eyes and I could see
he was getting scared. This is what I would do.
I looked out
the window; I would get in my white car and drive to the Federal Bureau of
Investigation the FBI building. That startle him, nope, I am not fucked up
about it. I would walk up the steps and I would open that door like I owned
that motherfucker. I could see it in his eyes then he knew I was serious. I
would ask where I can make some statements. Where is a pen and paper, I will
need a lot of paper, you know? Knowing if my manuscript being messed with, I
would be pushed to my limit I would snap and I know I could put some
motherfuckers under the jail. I have been in a choke hold for so long and if
that was done to me so be it. The way I see it, the book is based on a fiction
novel, names has been changed. Now when I go the FBI building the real names
will come to life. IDGAF anymore! As I write these books I see things so
clearly and can’t believe what I have been through and what I have put up with
all my fucking life. As I recall, my face has been on the floor in a choke hold
in a pile a shit for a looooooong time now. Push my buttons I will cause the domino
effect! Then he left without a goodbye, WTF, really. Oh well!
I was
watching the news the other day and the FBI of Arkansas wants people to step up and make a
stance. I was looking at the news and they are begging for people to step up.
It kind of mad me mad at first. I started my crusade September of 2010. I think
that I need to get my 4 books published and let me get on Dr Phil and let it
play out when it should play out. That would be the wisest choice to do. All of
this bullshit that I have to deal with has made me a strong motherfucker. I had no other choice. My father, well, he can
kiss my ass! That’s real talk. I am a good person with a good heart and soul
that right there would turn me into a bitch and there would be NO turning back
for this OLE girl. I can’t wait to step in front of a camera because I am full
and ready to talk about this.
