I have been
through so much that when I feel some bullshit creeping up on me I will know
it. Here lately I felt some strange vibes from the law enforcement of all
people. I wasn't sure what was going on. I wanted to state something about the Arkansas
State Police. I have never had any kind of problems with them. That is the
God’s honest truth. However I know how this county operates and I figure it’s a
deeper matter in that configuration of corruption. I pay attention to my
surroundings like a hawk in the sky that’s no lie.
The State
Trooper, I hate when you see a cop and they act like they are going to pull
over turn around and come after you. My rear-view mirror is my main BFF. This
has happened several times but the last time I went off. I took it to my
Twitter account. I love my account. That 140 character keeps me sane and not in
jail. I sent off my tweets like it was nothing. I was thinking to myself, I
have never had beef with them they actually have helped me out. I was
getting more pissed off and I was like the State Police doesn't want to be in
this remix because I am not bashful for throwing them in the fire-ring. IDGAF
that is truth! I have been through so much shit.
Then I
started to ponder my thoughts and go back in time to figure out when this had all started. I kept on pondering then I figure it out after my daughter’s
graduation. I did have someone mention to me about it. However I have already
figured it out. Man alive, I have left this person alone for a while now. I have
kids and I have to be respectful and deliver obedience regardless of the
situation in hand. I am not stupid by
any means! What I have done was get rid of the negative in my life and stayed
with the positive aspects of life. I feel so much better by doing so and I feel I can live
again. I can’t wait for my second book to get to the editor and get it
published. I am not going to be the nice one at all about that book. Throwing the cops on me
like a scare tactic is low as one goes. He is now on the level of my second
ex-husband and my ex brother-in-law. They were good about doing that to me. Every
dog has its day and I hope I live to see that domino effect. But once I took it
on the net it stopped so quick it made my head spin a little. I know some that
are high up in law enforcement. They do have my back that is a guarantee fact.
For nearly
10 years I have been laying on the floor in a choke hold of slander, stalking
and bullying. Then you add the scare tactics along the way because I did not
play like they did. As I write these books I have started to get up from that
spot that I have been in for many years. I see everything on a different level.
The chaos and the control are disappearing. I am smiling again and I am overcoming
a lot of obstacles in life. I am rising
out of that spot it’s almost like the phoenix. Once I get these 4 books
completed then I will no longer be lying in that spot of doom and darkness. In
my 40’s I will be living again. It’s about damn time. From sixteen to twenty
nine it was sex drugs and rock & roll. In my thirties I was isolated because
I did not obey the system. In my forties I will be living and breathing like a
normal person. People don’t take my intelligence seriously but that is okay.
Like the phrase goes, “What goes around comes back around.” Boom!
