Poverty that is understatement especially where I live at the Ass End
of the World, Arkansas and do not get me wrong, I live it. Because I know some
of you are looking at my pictures. Jay is a great friend and photographer and
he does all my work for free. He does that for single mothers. I just want to
lay that one out in the beginning. I live in a place where most of the teen
girls that are 16-19 are pregnant. They don’t have a clue that there is a world
out there than this f**ked up place. They were not taught that and that is sad.
Where the mothers and fathers that are addicted to meth and they make their
families do without, while they get their next fix. Some these kids go without
food at night because of that problem. The only food they receive is during
school, how sad is that? Most drink and drive on the weekends hit the dirt
roads and most likely there will be fights break out from time to time. You got
to love the redneck way of living. I live right in the middle of the gossip
town. I can sit on my porch and I could tell you, who is high who is drunk or
just down right plain mean. The meth is so bad here, if they did a sting, 80%
would go down, yes, it’s that bad here. There’s nothing like the Ass End of the
World. I could say it has made me mean as a snake. Because I do deal with a lot
of nosy ass bastards and no I do NOT feel sorry for putting them in their places.
The living here is horrible. I am thankful for the place that I stay at,
however I wish I was back in Little Rock. I was moved out for a while, it so
happen that I had to move back. I happen to marry sorry ass men and they can’t
get their finances right and it falls back on me because I married the POS’s I
will not lie about this not at all. I am living the American Nightmare. I just
have that gut feeling that this county will get it soon. I just can’t shake it
off. This is very scary living and not a nice atmosphere to raise a family. I
would not recommend this area, not by a long shot. It needs to be reshaped and
reformed before I recommend living here. Like I stated before, this is Satan’s
World. “Corruption at its finest” It’s a sad situation and I am hoping to get
out of here soon. I hope and pray that it happens soon but I highly doubt that.
I know I will get out it will take time though. I have kids to get graduated and up
and out of here. I do NOT want to them to live in Arkansas, there is a world
out there and I want them to experience it. I have really smart kids and I know
they can do so much better than me; I am just the one that got stuck here. I do
not want that for them. I want my kids have a better life than me. I want them
to shoot for the stars not have kids at a young age and be like me later in
life in a f**ked up situation, I will be doing good to live another good 20 years, how sad is that? But
this kind of living will do that to you when you don’t know better. I just have
enough guts to say what needs to be said about this county. I am pretty much
the only one needless to say. So to me that makes me special, because I have
enough intelligence to speak my mind on the World Wide Web. I have marketed it
to the fullest for right now but I will go up and beyond more in the future,
that is a promise I can keep.
