September 27, 2022

2022~I'll NEVER be silenced again!

 How do I cope with all the corruption that surrounds me?


My dogs, Hannah Mae and Henry. I just got a 2nd dog this year. Those dogs depend on me like I depend on them. I have 2 miniature poodles. They calm me down when my anxiety is high. Let me state this right now. They are my best therapists EVER. Animals love you unconditionally. They are there for you when your are down and out. Most of all, they save you. Especially when you want to end your life. We don't deserve animals to be honest. My dogs are my life saver! My kids are grown and gone. I don't have any grandchildren at the moment. I got 3 grand-dogs! I prefer dogs over humans any day of the week. Hannah and Henry, I start my day with them and end my day with them. They are the reason I get out of bed and a reason to live. If I didn't have them. I would stay in bed all the time. I would get out of the house when needed (appointments only) I am surrounded by so much corruption. It really weighs me down sometimes. I don't want to get into a dark place again, not in this lifetime. My dogs are my savior! I love them so much. They keep me pushing on. They keep me in a happy space ☺️ while I fight this bullsh*t!


Therapy:
As of 2022, it's a joke it has ALWAYS been a joke since June of 2019. I can 100% prove that in court. I should have been able to talk about whatever I need to talk about in the beginning. It is what it is until I get this corrupted situation in court. When the one who pressed charges on me in 2018 controlling the situation makes me sick. He is still calling the shots in the present time! The Arkansas State Hospital is a complete joke to be honest. I will get on national television say it in due time. This is one great big sh*t show when it comes to therapy. I am telling nothing but the truth. Everyone that is investigating this situation right now knows I am telling the truth. Therapy is a sh*t show. The Arkansas State Hospital is protecting a lot of people that's an understatement! I can 100% prove it! I should be able to get the right therapy without the corruption involved!


The article:
Why I am hell bent on the article? It will play a big part in court. When my paperwork (2004-2005) came into the picture the article disappeared without a trace like my 2005 trial did. The one who pressed charges on me in 2018 had it removed. Because it linked backed to his business. See, he had that article number one online since this happened in 2018. Another form of punishment for me. He thinks he's above the law and untouchable. He was hell bent to ruin my life and he ruined it too. Now since my 2004-2005 paperwork came into the picture, I proved there is a lot more corruption that surrounds me now. My paperwork from 2-17-04 to 3-1-22 is going to ruin a lot of people's lives. When it gets into court. This is a great big operation of organized crime. I can prove this in court 100%
Like I stated before, if this punk a$$ bitch a$$ corrupted maggot was 'oh so scared' how come he didn't put this on 4, 7, 11, and 16 in Arkansas. How come I didn't make the news? The corrupted maggot and his business does charity work on every station. Let me say this right now, that is all for show. To look good in the public eye, ONLY!  4, 7, 11 and 16, shouldn't get on TV say they will help out Arkansas citizens when they don't. They take orders instead! Turn around don't help people like they should, in my case they took orders (not to help me) I reached out to them, they didn't help me at all. I have all the emails to prove it. I was told because of the charity work they do for the news stations, $1000 award. The news station will side in with the business no matter what kind of evidence I had. So therefore the news stations is on his payroll too. It just makes me want to vomit! False advertising at its finest in Arkansas. The news stations in Arkansas should be called out on this as well. Be held accountable! I have proof (my emails) that I reached out to the news stations.

(I was just on one outlet, he made me out the bad guy there?)  I want to hear the reason in court from the Arkansas Democrat Gazette on that one. Now, I am hell bent to ruin his life and shut down his business. What's good for the goose is good for the gander so they say! So therefore that article will come down, when I say so. I might leave it up. Just to show the world what I been through in the state of Arkansas. I am pretty sure that the Arkansas FBI had the article put back online. They KNOW this will play a big part in court too. They are NOT dumb!

I read some reviews from Glassdoor and Indeed, I am so glad former employees are stating the truth about their awards. Like I said all along, bought and paid for. Best of the best, that's a gawd damn lie right there. They are shedding money to buy those awards! To make themselves look good! These people are weasels and snakes 🐍 they need the best of the best snake and weasel award! They need to be truthful to the state of Arkansas citizens! Quit being so fake! People should look at the lowest reviews on every review websites especially Google. That speaks volumes! You know what is FUNNY is that current employees doing reviews. I wonder how much money they are getting for that? Employee reviews should be given, when they leave the job NOT current employees. That's scammish to make the business look good. I said what I said!



Trauma and PTSD:

One thing I am having is flashbacks of the most traumatizing time of my life. I hate it here. I loathe what I was put through in 2004-2005. Being spun back in that time period absolutely makes me sick to my stomach. The audacity of this punk a$$ bi*tch a$$ corrupted maggot do this to my life and ruin it like he did. My justice was taken away so an organized crime ring couldn't be brought to light more less exposed. So these punks and a business destroyed my life. GTFOH!
Anyone that is working at this business aren't good people. They are trash, I said what I said. They are no good. They represent corruption, end of story. People should report any type of corruption being done especially illegal stuff at a workplace. Someone's life is being destroyed on false pretense. Report it! If the one who pressed charges on me in 2018 trying to blacklist you or ruin your life. Take a stance, be heard. Don't let that punk a$$ bitch a$$ corrupted maggot entrap you. Stand up for your rights. Take notes from me 🙂 they retaliated on me, not thinking this out thoroughly. It takes a real stupid person to think I didn't have paperwork from 2004-2005! Very dumb on their part! They need a dumb a$$ award for that one!

January 21, 2004:
18 years going on 19, years I can't get back. Years taken away from me in the name of corruption. Abuse of power, above the law and untouchable attitudes. Every one will KNOW my story in due time! Because I will never let this go! I WILL NOT be silenced. I WILL BE heard! This stops at me. I don't want no one else to go through what I have been through. This is pure hell pure torture very traumatizing!!!

Let me NOTE this: my life changed, June 17, 2021. That's when I found out that my 2004-2005 paperwork, 2004 charges were used in 2018 by Brad. My 2005 trial disappeared without a trace! Let me say this, he was happy to get copies of my 2004-2005 paperwork! Especially a copy of my statement on paper from my February 14, 2005 trial that disappeared. That made his day. I am the only person in Arkansas that has that information. He told me everything and what he was investigating. He's NOT with the FBI! He can get the FBI involved, tho 😏 a lot of corruption surrounds me. I've changed over this. I am NOT a people person anymore. I loathe people because of my trust issues. Especially the Arkansas State Hospital, how many people have they done this too? Protecting the corrupted? I will NEVER put with that sh*t! Never! This information changed me it changed me 100% I am NOT the same person after June 17, 2021. I will never ever put up with this corruption NOT in this lifetime!


Relationships:
Well, I was single from 2004 to 2014
2014, I got into a relationship. In 2015, my wreck happened, the corruption that surrounds my life destroys everything that comes in my path. I finally got the courage to get back into dating & relationships. Then boom my life sunk into the depths of hell. The universe is telling me to stay single. That's what I am going to do from now on. I felt pain in 2015 💔 finally I found someone. He was nearly 1200 miles away. I was was moving to New England, just 10 weeks away. I had my wreck lost everything in life unfortunately. Least I was happy even though it was short lived. I rather have that than nothing at all. He's happy, I wish him and his girlfriend nothing but the best. I wish them nothing but pure happiness, periodT. As far as me. I have a dark cloud over me and I don't think it's going away! The cards that life has delt me, purgatory where I landed! I must have done something really bad in my past lifetime, seriously! I stay off to myself. Just me and my dogs. I'm good 👍 I will never step back into the relationship hood ever again. 7 years single going 8 😶‍🌫️ it is what it is! Why step back into a relationship when it's going to be taken away from me? I rather save myself from that heartache just be single.








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