POVERTY

Poverty that is understatement especially where I live at the Ass End of the World, Arkansas and do not get me wrong, I live it. Because I know some of you are looking at my pictures. Jay is a great friend and photographer and he does all my work for free. He does that for single mothers. I just want to lay that one out in the beginning. I live in a place where most of the teen girls that are 16-19 are pregnant. They don’t have a clue that there is a world out there than this f**ked up place. They were not taught that and that is sad. Where the mothers and fathers that are addicted to meth and they make their families do without, while they get their next fix. Some these kids go without food at night because of that problem. The only food they receive is during school, how sad is that? Most drink and drive on the weekends hit the dirt roads and most likely there will be fights break out from time to time. You got to love the redneck way of living. I live right in the middle of the gossip town. I can sit on my porch and I could tell you, who is high who is drunk or just down right plain mean. The meth is so bad here, if they did a sting, 80% would go down, yes, it’s that bad here. There’s nothing like the Ass End of the World. I could say it has made me mean as a snake. Because I do deal with a lot of nosy ass bastards and no I do NOT feel sorry for putting them in their places. The living here is horrible. I am thankful for the place that I stay at, however I wish I was back in Little Rock. I was moved out for a while, it so happen that I had to move back. I happen to marry sorry ass men and they can’t get their finances right and it falls back on me because I married the POS’s I will not lie about this not at all. I am living the American Nightmare. I just have that gut feeling that this county will get it soon. I just can’t shake it off. This is very scary living and not a nice atmosphere to raise a family. I would not recommend this area, not by a long shot. It needs to be reshaped and reformed before I recommend living here. Like I stated before, this is Satan’s World. “Corruption at its finest” It’s a sad situation and I am hoping to get out of here soon. I hope and pray that it happens soon but I highly doubt that. I know I will get out it will take time though. I have kids to get graduated and up and out of here. I do NOT want to them to live in Arkansas, there is a world out there and I want them to experience it. I have really smart kids and I know they can do so much better than me; I am just the one that got stuck here. I do not want that for them. I want my kids have a better life than me. I want them to shoot for the stars not have kids at a young age and be like me later in life in a f**ked up situation, I will be doing good to live another good 20 years, how sad is that? But this kind of living will do that to you when you don’t know better. I just have enough guts to say what needs to be said about this county. I am pretty much the only one needless to say. So to me that makes me special, because I have enough intelligence to speak my mind on the World Wide Web. I have marketed it to the fullest for right now but I will go up and beyond more in the future, that is a promise I can keep.

September 17th 2010 TO September 17th 2011 30 BLOGS 1 Year =)

It has been a year, since I went on a mission to get these fktards off my back. It has been quiet around me now somewhat I still have a lot of nosiness going on. It has had its moments to be exact. When I started this I was, not backing down by no means, it very well made me have a mental meltdown for sure; however I was standing my ground. I meant business, it was just a simple in the beginning, ‘just leave me alone’ that is all that had to take place but no, I had to go through hell. I wonder if it was worth it because it has landed on the World Wide Web. I will get my story out that is a promise I can keep. I hope that ‘Karma’ zaps my 2^nd X-husband and his stupid ass brother; I hope she cuts loose on them like no other. All due in respect, these people deserves every bit of punishment that comes their way. As far as the law dogs here, I thought that was cute when they sent underage kids (males) to the house to buy alcohol for them and oh I can’t forget about the underage kids (males) around my daughter’s age, to see if I will sleep with them, oh how sick and twisted was that? People should think about the mentality around here it’s slim to none. I am like, ‘really’ I don’t think so, however nice try bitches, when the sh*t hits the fan, I will be sure to talk about this. It does not matter how much I stay off to myself, but every dog has their day and I will make sure the cops that has f**ked me over will get what is coming to them and that is a promise I can keep as well. Now, NOT all the cops are bad, these cops know who they are and they know what they have done. Helping these low lives out has landed them in trouble needless to say. I am proud of myself to get this out on the net. Since I have gotten my point across, I will be closing this out on my part; September 17^th 2010 to September 17^th 2011 is done. I will bust out a blog if I need too if they start back up. Now I will have a year to do short stories of different occurrences. Like the Wal-Mart parking lot and Killed Front of my Daughters. Names and places will be with-held. However I will get my point across. Here’s to the next chapter in my life.

Just a MINOR setback for a MAJOR comeback that's all =)

Being rip to shreds over and over gets old, yes, it does. I just think to myself and ask, why me? I am put on earth for some reason; I really do think that I am the one to set this county straight. It has been so quiet, however, I wish something’s would go as order, getting certified letters, emails, and phone calls now, is a pain in the ass. I will be glad when this passes. The more I try the more I get tore down, I am so used to it and that right there is a sad thing to say. My education just went out the door; I was doing so well in Little Rock. Then my life went to hell in a hand basket once again. I had to move back to the Ass End of the World. By September of last year, I had enough of the bullsh*t and then I started fighting back. I started to blog about my occurrences which took place at different times. I am glad that I did this because it shows what kind of jerks I deal with and I have too many to count. Hopefully my education will pick back up; it will kill my soul if it doesn’t. I had a certain friend to tell me, there is a reason for you to be back here. Everything happens for a reason they stated, you are the one to shut this crap down. He told me I will be known all over the world, not just by my BlogSpot, Twitter, and MySpace. I just hope that I can hang on, because this is really tearing me down, emotionally, mentally and physically. That is why I want to do an interview; people should see my face and my emotions. It’s not pretty it’s really scary to tell you the truth. It should be talked about and evaluated for the world to see. I have this gut feeling that all hell will be breaking out, I can’t shake this feeling. Whatever it is I hope it tears these fktards a new a**hole. I really do. I hope they wake up and smell the roses. I highly doubt that, stranger things have happen though. I have a serious gut feeling. I just want my life back, that’s all. Paybacks are a bitch, just sayin’

Jealousy and liars are a disease which infects the life of good people. Exposing their lies is the cure.

I think it’s funny how people are getting the hell out of dodge. When the water gets hot they have to go.  As I look back on it, many of these people have ruined many lives of many folks. Now, they have decided to skip out and forget what they have done. On my part it’s slandering and stalking. I experienced a lot of psychological babble bullsh*t that was much uncalled for over the years. What about the ones that have lost their loved ones over lies to keep people safe. What I am talking about is the good O boy system. I can say this has pissed me off beyond measures. But all sense of reality judgment day is coming. No, I still don’t care about what people think about me doing this blog. Yeah, some are for me and some are against me. All I am doing is telling the truth. I am the type that will tell you to kiss my ass real quick. There are a lot of two faced motherfkkers since I joined back on FB, I can tell from the real from the fake. I will sit there like a snake in the grass and see what is up. I am not too worried about that, I have had people to talk to me about that. I know how to handle my FB page, it’s all good. Not all are bad, but there are some nosy ass bastards, that’s for sure. However I do have some kick-ass people on there with some kick-ass attitudes to boot, I like that, seriously! I don’t give a sh*t about what people think about me, either you love or you don’t. I will not lose any sleep over it. However people leaving certain positions here in this county are pathetic losers. They can run but they can’t hide. This has really made me mad, however karma is a bigger bitch than I am, I sure will be glad when their day comes. Because I want them to feel like I do, when you have had your life torn to shreds, and scattered all over the place. They need to feel that kind of pain, I know from experience it doesn’t feel good not at all. Some of these people are some low lives scum buckets, that shouldn’t breathe the air that I breathe.  I am telling nothing but the truth to this matter in hand. They can run their mouths about me 24/7 but I am going to run my mouth about the truth 24/7 about this county. Hey, at least I have big balls to do what I am doing. I just have that gut feeling that the sh*t is going to hit the fan soon and it’s going to beautiful!

I am a brutally honest person and I am labeled as a CRAZY woman, boy the mentality is low, huh?

I have 2 words for these people that know me in real life that have caused me grief, f**k you! Yep that about sums it up right there =) all I have been doing is telling the truth and nothing but the truth however I am the craziest person alive. Well the truth hurts, anyways there has to be someone to put these people in their place. See, I deal with dope heads on a daily basis. That right there is the hardest and the most stressful part of my life. Dealing with ignorance coming from these folks are mind blowing and physically draining to the body. I am straight to the point no beating around the bush and sugar coating there is no need for that, I mean seriously. Be straight forward and go on with it. Now everyone running and hiding like nothing happen, well I got some news for these folks, too bad to sad it isn’t going to happen like that. I have lost a lot over the years and those years I can’t ever get back. These people and this county have done so much damage to me it just makes me sick at my stomach. Now they are playing the game like it never happen (news flash) I will not forgive nor forget until I see these twisted souls rot in jail and maybe in hell. Because I am way smarter than these twits and I got myself on the Internet to tell my story and remember there are more people in this county that has stories to tell about this system that is still going on here. I am not the only one, I am just the only one that has enough balls to speak up and let the world know about this kind of abuse. I have rights and I have a right to be left alone not be slandered nor stalked by these morons. I still can’t get over the fact that they were saying they never knew about my BlogSpot, I am like really? Seriously? What a joke! I will NEVER buy into that one for sure. How about a lie detector test and see what is really up? I know it's going to be nothing but lies. They would FAIL that test for realz! Dope heads are pathetic and need a shot of a reality check straight into the ass! I can actually say in this day of time in 2011, I hate these types of people. When I was on that side of the track years and years ago, I apologized for my behavior because I know it wasn’t good, how I acted. I am truly sorry for acting like a dumb ass back in the day. I am so sorry, seriously I am. Hey at least I can admit that I was a fool than pretend to be a fake and live in a fairy tale world. I am woman enough to say I am wrong and I am sorry. I keep it 100 all the time and I sleep like a baby at night. So the story goes people like me will always get a nasty treatment from the no good sorry SOB’s that make your life a living hell. Because we can own up to our faults and learn by them. I am a good person with a good soul. I am just a woman that doesn’t put up with any crap from anyone, not by a long shot. People with a low mentality will say I am a drama causing bitch but all in the sense in reality. I just state the facts and put everyone in check and I am not ashamed of doing it either. My intelligence is a little higher than theirs. I just took a more mature approach, the World Wide Web level. If I can’t get any help here I will put my story on the net. I have had enough of the BS and I will nip it in the bud and have no problems doing so. I am sick of dope heads coming to my house and trying to get me out. I know something is up with that and it's not good either. Then I am tired of underage kids trying to get me to buy alcohol for them. I am like get an f**king life already. LEAVE ME ALONE! That is how I see it =) that is how I am going to roll with it. This is not over far from it! They have turned a good woman into a bitch and now I am on a path for some kind of justice. It is awful that at good hearted woman like myself at one time, had to turn into a cold hearted bitch. That has pissed me off on so many levels. I am on a mission!!!

 

Just found this website, now that is sum funny stuff right there, woot!

I have been tailed for years on the Internet. I means seriously. I have a tracker and it shows location and the ip address, come on now. Just found it, that is so funny. But I am not going to worry about it though. Liars are such fools. Karma is a bitch and what goes around will always come back around. This made my day right here. Just found out, oh about 2006 you guys did when I joined the Internet world, I think that is funny. But the ones that know are the ones that will get the job done. I can't wait, I just love print screen =) When I tell the truth and everyone goes crazy. Well they can go crazy all they like, woot-woot! Because I will continue to tell the truth. In the long this will favor on my part, whoop-whoop! Just remember I am TeamFBI and TeamDEA. I roll with those folks. I am the only one in this county stands up to the filth. I know these folks don't have a problem with me. Because when I started all of this September the 17th of 2010 with my testimony. It was all eyes on me with them.Well it was like that back in 04, thank God for them I mean seriously. They have kept me out of harms way. They will get rewarded more ways than one when this is said and done. Just found out, that is the craziest thing I heard. I bet the higher ups will disagree on that one. Like one of them told me, you will come out on top and the scum will be brought down =) Charges bring it on baby, because I am going to demand hair follicle testing, well this one is new. So go ahead shave the head or whatever put some kind of shampoo on it. It will not help, BTW. Yes, I can do this. I don't have anything to worry about. I would love to see the stats on that for the last 5 or 6 years. I wonder if the DHS would have to be call on. I never said that I would take any kids out of the home, now if the follicle comes back not good but that is out of my hands though. I was told about the illegal activities going on especially last summer, woot! Did I just say that? I am itching to do this soooooo bad! As far as you guys are in for a visit. I am told by someone, they just warn me that's all. I am like OK with it, I just work or I go visit. I don't want to run it to you guys. I'll pass, woot! Ok the 'brother' thing OMG how funny! He is a good guy, yes he is but a controlling man oh no I will not put up with that, no way. Stuck up each other's asses on a daily basis, I don't think so. I guess he said, that he kicked me to the curb too. My mom was there and I broke up with him. I don't know why they are putting their 2 cents in, but I don't give a rats ass. I am like whatever. I am up for a good challenge though. It's my choice to be single, there is one that I would get in a relationship with and he is a FBI Agent and he has seen the beat downs I have taken and he also has seen when I just pick myself back up and dust my shoulders off and go on. He will be the only one that is for sure. I bet your sweet ass on that! I have the right to block anybody so that is that on that part, LOL

Get Tough or Die, take your pick..........

That phrase should sum it up right there. You either get tough or you die. However I am a fighter and I will continue to fight for a better life. I have put up with some major BS and why? I don’t have any idea but for most part of it, it's all about control. I am sorry, these folks aren’t going to control me not by a long shot. I will fight till my death over that. Tina Graves controls herself no one else will do that job. I have had enough and I will take this to another level. My life is like a nightmare that won’t end; I mean seriously it’s aggravating needless to say. But, I have seen a big let up like a release of pressure lifted off of my back. I can leave my place and not having different ones to trail me and see what I am doing. That there is a blessing in disguise; you know, like I have stated on here before. What I do is my business it is nobody else’s business but mine. It is not my ex-husbands business not my ex-brother-in-laws business either. People shouldn’t be running and telling them what I am doing. However getting on the internet has broken them from doing that. I am not married thank God! I don’t have to answer to anyone but me. I think that’s how it should be. Dear Jesus they need to quit being nosy ass bastards I swear my time. Thank God for the internet I have ways to get my problems out on a more mature level than the ones in this po dunk town.  Karma is a bitch and these people here have a wakeup call coming to them that doesn’t even make sense. However when you do people wrong then you have to pay the consequences in the end. These uneducated twits have never thought anything about that. Yeah, they need to keep doing their drugs and keep nosin'in people’s business and eventually they will get their noses slap off soon for being such punks. They need to stay clean all away around and people like me will  put them in their place. I do not feel sorry for them. I do live in a low mentality area and that is very tough to deal with, take my word for it. All these people does, live on my sites and I will give them something to read and make them think. An average 5^th grader is smarter than them. They say I am dumb, I laugh at that remark. Since I have put my sites on a marketing level, even though it’s not a business (not yet, it will turn out that way soon) but it is my words and about my life and I am not afraid to talk about it at all. This is a very true situation and I would give anything to do an interview or just get on Dr Phil. I don’t have any shame in my game and I am so ready to talk about this more ways than one. My kids they will be the first ones to get rewarded in the end. I promise that much. I have a story to tell and I will tell it. I have had some to ask me about a reality show. I would do that if the right one came along. Everybody should see the ass end of the world. That is a good one right there. I would love to sit with an author and do a book as well. Either way you look at this situation it can go into many directions. The direction will be going towards the way for some much needed justice. Like today, I had a person came to my porch and talking the same O sh*t, I am like really. These people need to get a life and pay their taxes. They are worried about their taxes oh yes they are they need to be. Hell, they should have been paying them year after year in the first place.They live high on the hog and people like me, gets punished. I will not put up with that crap. I do right by the law. These people absolutely make me sick.Their no special than anyone else. I bet in the end of this situation they will be glad to pay those bad boys year after year. I just get tired of people trying to get me out and go with them. I know it’s either death or set up. My nerves are worn out and I really don’t know how much more I can take. I really don’t. I just want to be left alone that’s all. Now everyone wants to move out of state. Well the law will come out there and get them as well they can here. I hope these people lose everything they have worked for, and then they can see how it feels. I have lost everything time and time again over these people and you know what I hate them for that. I get everything taken away from me quite often for the truth to be known. I think they need to feel that pain for once. I hope these bastards get what is coming to them. I need a break for realz. I need to see some kind of justice, like right now.

The All American Nightmare =(

The All American Nightmare

Even though they have backed off, that doesn’t mean crap to me. The damage is done and I will seek some kind of justice. This should have never happen in the first place and I will be the one to set an example and put these people in their places. I am like game-on bitches. That is how I feel. They have destroy my life and I will make sure this doesn’t happened to someone one else. There should be some kind of law built within the system to protect people like me.

1)  A cop should not be able to stalk a law abiding citizen.

2)  A cop should know if an informant is telling the right story or not. The cop should know his/her job.

Now I can see if the person was up to no good and they were on the wrong side of the track and all. Yes, they need to be taken down. But let’s reverse this, when a person minds their own business and doesn’t disturb anyone. They need to be left alone, seriously.

They have started something with me and I will not give up until I see some kind of law standing within the system to protect people like me. I don’t care about the Good O Boy system; I’ll scratch your back if you scratch mine kind of thing.

This county has absolutely done me in, I swear it has. Now everyone is quite. I beg thy pardon, I don’t think so. I can’t stand dope heads I swear I can’t they make me so sick. They need their ass kicked up between their shoulders and people that are around them, need to quit babying them and drop them on their ass make them crawl then walk right into recovery. These twits should be put in their place at all cost even if they have to lose everything around them and start all over. I have been there and done that and it’s not pretty but I got through it. However I still have everything taken away from me and I obey the law too, WTF is up with that one? I swear my time! Something needs to give, for realz! I wish the dope heads blame their selves and take a good look in the mirror because they are the problem, not innocent people that are trying to make it in this mean ass cold world we live in.

I tell you right now, I will never get married again. Men are crazy and controlling and I think I am better off being a lesbian. I am Bi so I guess I need to make the transformation of the cross over to the other team. This kind of punishment, stalking and accusing and cops galore at my door, I think I will NEVER get back in a relationship with a man. I am better off without them that’s for sure. I would love to do an interview or be on Dr. Phil, I want to talk about this on a worldwide level so bad it hurts. This situation should be talked about and laid out on the table. I want to talk about it and I want a Tina Graves Vs. _____ _____. That is what I am talking about right there =) I am not going to stop until something is done.

No Sir Re Bob, I don’t Feel Sorry for What I Have Said on Here, End Of Story

I don’t feel one bit sorry not at all, I have put up with so much BS that I can’t take it any longer. For me to stand up for myself feels AWESOME! I have been made out like I am a POS and a good for nothing trailer trash whore. Oh, I forget how I am a homewrecker when it comes to married men. I am like WTF are you serious? I haven’t done such a thing. The dope is talking on so many levels I do believe. I am not like that by a long shot. When I degraded the dope heads I really pissed some folks off. So be it, to the dope heads that can’t pass a hair follicle test is absolutely a POS a good for nothing moron. By all means they should have everything taken away from them and start all over by earning everything back. I feel good about myself knowing a hair follicle is clean on my part. That is one thing I can’t stand is a dope head. Hey, least I can sleep at night. How many of the tweekers can say that? Oh I don’t think none can say that. All I am doing is telling the truth and truth is killing a lot of people. If these people weren’t high they would not be by my sites all the time huh? When I started to get raw stating the way I felt about this situation everybody got defensive. Talking about some humor, I thought that was funny. However I am telling the truth nothing but truth. Tina is this Tina is that, she’s no good. The lies I have heard, were shocking it really was but all do in respect I give don’t give a sh*t. It used to hurt my feelings but now it has made me stronger. I must be doing something right for people saying all kinds of stuff about me. I know who I am and I know what I have done and it has not been all that bad. I have had my moments, hell who hasn’t? Because I don’t hang out with some people in this county because I don’t want to hang out with the low lives. That makes me into a bad person. I don’t want to play by the rules with the Good O Boy System? Well I think I will take the Good O Boy System rules and wipe my a$$ with it. How do you like those apples? I stand up to these people and make a stance, I am no good. So be it, I am like whatever anymore. This is how I feel and I will not change that, I am a good person with a good heart. Because I am blunt and tell it like it is and it gets me into trouble. Who gives a rats a$$? I shall not change for no one! I have been picked up and slammed on the ground so many times and that right there has made me into a person that I like. I have zero tolerance and don’t put with any crap; I am such a stickler huh? Oh I am sorry I am from the South, I meant a bitch, my bad. I would give anything to do an interview or just be on Dr. Phil, I swear I would love to do that. I know I have made some folks mad, but guess what? They could never ever get as mad as me. Thank goodness that I know my$$ from a hole in a ground that I can get my story out on the internet. I know in my heart that I will get media attention on this situation, I just have to have me some faith and everything will fall into place. I am thankful for BlogSpot and Twitter and MySpace. The internet is a great way to reach out for help, when you can’t get any help at all. I am not stupid by no means; I am just going to a length to get some kind of help. I can’t get it in this state or my hometown I will get it somewhere. I am tired of being bullied by these people. 8-5-04 should have been the last day to lash out, not 7 years later for crying out loud. I don’t like these people and there was a reason for me to separate from them. I do everything for a reason. I will get some kind of justice with this situation, hell and high water I will. I am done just stick a fork in me. This is what happens when people stay all up in my business 24/7 here in this county. “All over the world internet story.” There are millions and millions people on here and I will reach out to that many, that is a promise I can keep. When a person gets bullied, slandered and degraded on a daily basis will go up and beyond and get some kind of help. I took a hell of a lick last April and I still have not recovered from it, however I am just waiting on my letter on that part, it could go on my favor or the other ones favor. Who knows, but like the story goes the dope head gets all the glory so therefore I know where it’s going, I just need that letter, that’s all. So I can move on from that one. So I can recover from the other messes. I am the one that is trying and I get sh*t on like I do. All hail to the dope heads I suppose, this state is such a joke. I am getting to that point that I don’t care and I will get this story out there. Whatever it takes, I am done so done. In this state the good people are thrown to the waste side and the dope heads live it up with all their illegal activities that just disgust me and really pisses me off. This is wrong on so many levels. This state is so backwards. What is really going on here?

IT'S ALL ABOUT CONTROL

That is the main problem to this situation. It’s all about CONTROL and that is not going to happen to me, not by a long shot. I have been disobedient from the day one, 1-21-2004. I don’t listen well. I am not going to listen to these POS people in this county. That will never happen not in this lifetime. However that has put me on a long road to hold. When you don’t do what you are ordered to do, then you will have hell on your hands and I have had plenty of hell on my hands. I am surprised that my skin is still there. You know that hell is hot and my hands are scorned. How I am living at this point of time is beyond me. I think that my strong willed and ambitiousness is pulling me through. There are so many days that I look in the mirror and say to myself, another day of life another day of breathing. What is my reason for me to be here on earth? I have everything yanked up underneath me all the time, I have my head held down to the ground and it’s hard to get up when the scum don’t let you breathe and they don’t let you live. But, my blogging is helping me out and it is very therapeutic, I might have to say. Control, that is main objective to this problem, this is 2011, and I am a liberal woman. I will never get in another relationship, never ever again. When I see a man trying to control me, I would just hate to put him in a choke hold. My liberation has bloomed big-time. I think outside the box and I am a realist. The Good O Boy System controls you in every way. If you don’t obey you will have hell to pay. I get so sick of people trying to control me. What I do is my business, it is not theirs. They can live on my sites all day and every day, I don’t give a sh*t. I will still speak my mind and keep it 100. It is getting a little better somewhat, I can leave my house and the calls are not that bad. It is bad when you can’t make a move without someone knowing. I should get a police megaphone and use it every time I leave my property. Tina is leaving the premises. Seriously, this is how I feel; I am like, am I that popular, really? The Control and the stupidity that comes with it, totally blows my mind, for real. The mentality here is very low, like a dozen Barney Fifes. I swear to gawd, it is like the twilight zone! I think they need to take the control and turn it sideways and cram it up their ass that is what I think about this situation. Can I get a hell yeah? I want to do an interview so bad and Dr Phil. I want to talk about this on a face to face level. I want to do that so bad I can just taste it. These people here that I know, they need to see my emotions and my eyes that’s where my pain lies at. I will be able to heal, when I am able to talk about it. I will never heal totally but I will heal somewhat and that is a good thing, better than nothing and being stuck in limbo, you know. I will remain blunt and tell it like it is and never sugarcoat anything, one day I will blow this county out of the water for sure!